Mar 18, 2009 21:14
ok i'm back...hyperventilating and sad that its time to go home..how sad is that my friends?? I should be happy to go see the kids and the baby but i'm not sure.
Please dont take that the wrong way but i'm already stressed out to the point i need another vacation already? Somethings wrong with this picture dont u think? I need to calm down and get my shit together but how do i do that? I thought i had that licked but i guess ...as us al...i'm wrong again,
FUCK! Why cant i be happy for more than a vacations worth of stalling huh?Dizziness is not my favorite thing thats for sure... wow wouldnt it be crazy of me to faint just because i'm going home...wtf ...
I am still going to try my best to improve myself and the way i have been living for so long...i have to tosave myself and my kids from the misery they have already endured...i feel so bad for that too.
Ok..i'm going to go home and do this...no matter what i feel ! I have to pick my ass up and get it back to gether...yea thats what i will do...now!!! JUST DO IT! right?
Ok i'll see u tomorrow i guess ..if not u know why dont u?????