The good, The bad All rolled into one weekend
This weekend, I have realized how much I truly miss my cousins Dalton and Sabrina, a reminder of how lonely I am, how much I like cosmic bowling, and bowling in general, and how much I love Napoleon Dynomite. This weekend for once was pretty busy.
Friday----- Me and Mary did some community service for our church, we fed soup to old people. I have realized no matter how polite you are, you are still going to meet rude people. Anyways I felt really good when I got home. Like i'm good for something and not a complete waste.
Saturday----- me and my family went to a birthday party for my little cousin. Me, my cousins and my sisters went around outside and found a dirty glove, shoe, basketball, and furby from McDonalds, and we proceeded to put things in and on random cars in the parking lot of the restaurant. Oh and knocking over the plant(you would have had to have been there) After that we went out Cosmic bowling. It was THE most fun I had had in months. You would have to have been there to understand. I will NEVER forget that night. All the crazy bowling we did, crazy bowling 'positions', Sabrina dropping the bowling ball 3 times. AWESOME night. We got home at around 11:00.
Sunday----- I skipped ccd because I was really tired, plus I had no idea what to write in my essay which was soposed to be on my favorite homily. I don't know any homilies. Anyways at around 10:30 my family went over to my grandma's for a breakfast. then we watched Napoleon Dynomite. Then my uncle all of us cousins and my mom got to talking about doing vacations and day trips together. It sounded like so much fun and hopefully we will be planning out stuff to do. we left around 430. Well around 7ish Rachel asks me to get her a paper towel, I walk into her room and give it to her and she is throwing up in her garbage. When she finished her garbage was about halfway full (i know its sick that I looked lol) and we got to talking about her throwing up. at 8:30 I called Jon only to find out from his stepdad that he was grounded. God knows what the hell he did and when the hell he will be ungrounded. But I do know that I will miss talking to him deeply.
On a bit of a less exciting note. While bowling, I couldn't help but notice the kid next to our lane. He reminded me of Brian, blue jeans black t-shirt, hat. Even seemed to be the same height. The way he walked acted reminded me of Brian. The difference Brian has a sexier and more beautiful smile than that kid did. I miss him with all my heart. Even though he IM's me now, things are not the same. WE don't really talk anymore and he just usually signs off without any warning. I don't know what is going on. I don't want to act the same as I did before because I don't want him to think that everything is all better when in reality it definitly isn't. But sometimes when we are talking instead of staying neutral, I show some kind of emotion or flirtatiousness (I know not a word). I'm so confused. I want things to be the way when we just met. Nothing can even begin to express how I feel. I wish I could explain it but it is so hard to put into words. Its so hard loving someone and not being loved back but he soposably knows how that is because from what I have heard Brian wants Sam back and he misses her and tells her that he loves her and I don't think she feels the same way back.
-------Also bowling made me think about hom lonely I am. I would love to have a boyfriend and go out places cosmic blowling hanging at the mal just laying on the couch with him watching a movie. I really wish I could share that with someone. I wish I could have shared that with Brian. I still want to though it is clear he doesn't want that and it will never happen. I wouldn't mind sharing that with Jon either.
Well enough with my nonsense. I'm going to watch some home videos with my parents. Life goes by so fast. I feel bad for my parents having to watch the past and thing about the future for their kids. Moving away getting married having kids of our own. It is a truly scary thought. I'm afraid of moving out being alone and on my own. But that, that will be saved for another day.
xoxo
Melanie
Friday----- Me and Mary did some community service for our church, we fed soup to old people. I have realized no matter how polite you are, you are still going to meet rude people. Anyways I felt really good when I got home. Like i'm good for something and not a complete waste.
Saturday----- me and my family went to a birthday party for my little cousin. Me, my cousins and my sisters went around outside and found a dirty glove, shoe, basketball, and furby from McDonalds, and we proceeded to put things in and on random cars in the parking lot of the restaurant. Oh and knocking over the plant(you would have had to have been there) After that we went out Cosmic bowling. It was THE most fun I had had in months. You would have to have been there to understand. I will NEVER forget that night. All the crazy bowling we did, crazy bowling 'positions', Sabrina dropping the bowling ball 3 times. AWESOME night. We got home at around 11:00.
Sunday----- I skipped ccd because I was really tired, plus I had no idea what to write in my essay which was soposed to be on my favorite homily. I don't know any homilies. Anyways at around 10:30 my family went over to my grandma's for a breakfast. then we watched Napoleon Dynomite. Then my uncle all of us cousins and my mom got to talking about doing vacations and day trips together. It sounded like so much fun and hopefully we will be planning out stuff to do. we left around 430. Well around 7ish Rachel asks me to get her a paper towel, I walk into her room and give it to her and she is throwing up in her garbage. When she finished her garbage was about halfway full (i know its sick that I looked lol) and we got to talking about her throwing up. at 8:30 I called Jon only to find out from his stepdad that he was grounded. God knows what the hell he did and when the hell he will be ungrounded. But I do know that I will miss talking to him deeply.
On a bit of a less exciting note. While bowling, I couldn't help but notice the kid next to our lane. He reminded me of Brian, blue jeans black t-shirt, hat. Even seemed to be the same height. The way he walked acted reminded me of Brian. The difference Brian has a sexier and more beautiful smile than that kid did. I miss him with all my heart. Even though he IM's me now, things are not the same. WE don't really talk anymore and he just usually signs off without any warning. I don't know what is going on. I don't want to act the same as I did before because I don't want him to think that everything is all better when in reality it definitly isn't. But sometimes when we are talking instead of staying neutral, I show some kind of emotion or flirtatiousness (I know not a word). I'm so confused. I want things to be the way when we just met. Nothing can even begin to express how I feel. I wish I could explain it but it is so hard to put into words. Its so hard loving someone and not being loved back but he soposably knows how that is because from what I have heard Brian wants Sam back and he misses her and tells her that he loves her and I don't think she feels the same way back.
-------Also bowling made me think about hom lonely I am. I would love to have a boyfriend and go out places cosmic blowling hanging at the mal just laying on the couch with him watching a movie. I really wish I could share that with someone. I wish I could have shared that with Brian. I still want to though it is clear he doesn't want that and it will never happen. I wouldn't mind sharing that with Jon either.
Well enough with my nonsense. I'm going to watch some home videos with my parents. Life goes by so fast. I feel bad for my parents having to watch the past and thing about the future for their kids. Moving away getting married having kids of our own. It is a truly scary thought. I'm afraid of moving out being alone and on my own. But that, that will be saved for another day.
xoxo
Melanie