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Feeling bitchy and anti-social lately. It's nobodys fault- just me being paranoid about life. I'm getting sick of my jobs but at the same time I feel like I'm not working as much as I should to get money together for Christmas presents and Europe. I really need a day off, between the three jobs and school I haven't had one for the past 3 weeks, but the way things are going I'm probably not going to get one until Christmas.
I don't feel confident about this directing project I'm doing and am actually kind of pissed that it's taking over my weekend next week which is totally unlike me, I normally love doing shows. Basically I know that if I could somehow take a deep breath and lower my shoulders about three inches life would seem a whole lot brighter.
I'm also worried about school. Mel and Mo are doing all these transfer applications and I haven't done jack. I don't know where I'm going to get the money for a university and I don't quite know what university I want to go to, so therefore I don't want to send out a bunch of applications when my heart isn't really set on anything. At the same time I'm afraid of just sticking around SMC- I know I've pretty much grown out of that school. This semester I took three hard core business classes and have pretty much nailed As in two of them even with missing half of the lectures.
I don't know...and therin lies the issue.
I don't feel confident about this directing project I'm doing and am actually kind of pissed that it's taking over my weekend next week which is totally unlike me, I normally love doing shows. Basically I know that if I could somehow take a deep breath and lower my shoulders about three inches life would seem a whole lot brighter.
I'm also worried about school. Mel and Mo are doing all these transfer applications and I haven't done jack. I don't know where I'm going to get the money for a university and I don't quite know what university I want to go to, so therefore I don't want to send out a bunch of applications when my heart isn't really set on anything. At the same time I'm afraid of just sticking around SMC- I know I've pretty much grown out of that school. This semester I took three hard core business classes and have pretty much nailed As in two of them even with missing half of the lectures.
I don't know...and therin lies the issue.