In which in I fail at something millions of people do every day
My eye doctor appointment today did not get off to a right start. I had something come up at work, so I was away from my desk when my phone alarm went off. I called the office, they said I could still come, even late, and there wasn't a late fee. So I went, sat through the the usual round of putting my forehead against machines looking at blurry things while they took pictures and measurements, etc. Happily, no glaucoma test today or dilation of my eyes. WOO!
However, my optimistic intention to try out contact lenses ended in utter failure. The doctor put them in for me the first time - not an exact prescription, but pretty close - to test them out. They made my eyes feel watery but I was still like "okay, this isn't bad." I look WEIRD without glasses though. My forehead became huge without my glasses to break things up.
So, after the rest of the checkup (doctor says my eyes are very healthy, nothing to worry about, etc) time for contact training.
Cue failure.
It took me a half hour to get them out. My eyes looked like someone had boiled them in oil by the time I was done and they hurt. I cannot control my blink reflex. I gave up on trying to get even one in. I couldn't see what I was doing and my blinking just wouldn't stop. My growing frustration wasn't helped by my growing hunger, so I said I'd just stop for the night and if I hadn't changed my mind about them, I'd reschedule training. I felt close to tears more than once, though I think if I hadn't been so hungry, I wouldn't have felt like that. But, still. FAILURE AT LIFE.
I don't know if I want to try again. The stubborn part of me does, to prove that I can. But the practical side of me doesn't want to pay the $130 upfront costs for something I wasn't going to use full time anyway.
However, my optimistic intention to try out contact lenses ended in utter failure. The doctor put them in for me the first time - not an exact prescription, but pretty close - to test them out. They made my eyes feel watery but I was still like "okay, this isn't bad." I look WEIRD without glasses though. My forehead became huge without my glasses to break things up.
So, after the rest of the checkup (doctor says my eyes are very healthy, nothing to worry about, etc) time for contact training.
Cue failure.
It took me a half hour to get them out. My eyes looked like someone had boiled them in oil by the time I was done and they hurt. I cannot control my blink reflex. I gave up on trying to get even one in. I couldn't see what I was doing and my blinking just wouldn't stop. My growing frustration wasn't helped by my growing hunger, so I said I'd just stop for the night and if I hadn't changed my mind about them, I'd reschedule training. I felt close to tears more than once, though I think if I hadn't been so hungry, I wouldn't have felt like that. But, still. FAILURE AT LIFE.
I don't know if I want to try again. The stubborn part of me does, to prove that I can. But the practical side of me doesn't want to pay the $130 upfront costs for something I wasn't going to use full time anyway.