memories
Why do memories have to hurt so much???
I have started going though boxes to get rid of things I don't want or need to make it easier for me and him both to move (me back to the south, him back to the UK if he chooses). I found a box with a bunch of cards in it and one that Giles sent me, just to read how much he loved me then, and compare it with how he acts towards me now makes me cry. He says this is just natural and that relationships just fizzle out like this, but I don't think they do, or should.
Maybe I just don't know what Love is, maybe all my relationships have been forms of love but not the real thing, I don't know, but I know this relationship is not a good place for me. I know that we both made mistakes and we both let our love die along the way, and maybe we both tried, but didn't try at the same time, or didn't try hard enough. I just know that I don't have it in me to try anymore.
I have started going though boxes to get rid of things I don't want or need to make it easier for me and him both to move (me back to the south, him back to the UK if he chooses). I found a box with a bunch of cards in it and one that Giles sent me, just to read how much he loved me then, and compare it with how he acts towards me now makes me cry. He says this is just natural and that relationships just fizzle out like this, but I don't think they do, or should.
Maybe I just don't know what Love is, maybe all my relationships have been forms of love but not the real thing, I don't know, but I know this relationship is not a good place for me. I know that we both made mistakes and we both let our love die along the way, and maybe we both tried, but didn't try at the same time, or didn't try hard enough. I just know that I don't have it in me to try anymore.