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Where do I start .. well i suck at doing long stories and letters so this will probably end up being breif. I havent been on here for quite a while. I am now living in new zealand with my grandparents.
It was one of the hardest things iVE EVER had to do leaving my beautiful friends who have been nothing but support. Most of my friends dont know how obssessed I am with food, feeling gross when I eat it etc etc, and thats the way I like it.
On my last night in meLbourne my friends, well actually my guy friend) organised the whole night. It was his 18th as well but he organised a limo to come to my door . iT was black and sleak. I was in total shock. I couldnt beleive people loveed me that much. It drove meto my friends house , where about 20 of my friends were there all there to say goodbye. 9 of my friends got into the limo with me. I think it was the first time I was speechless, I usually always have something to say. We drove to the inner city of Melbourne and had dinner at this really nice restaurant. My guy friend said, see I found a place that even has salads on it for you lol he knows me all too well. We then went to a movie and caught the train home. It was the best night and I couldnt have asked for anything better. I had no idea that was going to happen.
That was a little over 2 weeks now and I miss my friends to bits.
Now 2 weeks on im still sruggeling with trying not to purge
I eat a apple and some cheese or yoghurt for breakfast, 2 peices of fruit during the day. Then I stuff my face with my grandads cooking. (hes an awsome cook) and I purge it all up... I feel bad. I want to try to stop but I just seem not to be able to...
I feel even more alone now because I dont have my 2 besties to talk about my probems. But good in a way because then I dont burden them with all the little dramas
I better go now... But its good to be back and I hope to help support you guys and gals too
rose xoxo