Meh
Happiness is...
- hovering around the door, I think
I spent part of today on the verge of tears, which I managed to keep in check because work is sooo not the place I want to have a breakdown. Especially where I am at the moment.
Tears were brought on partly (in a good way) by lassarina and raina28 being a pair of sweethearts *hugs back* and partly (in a bad way) because I'm just so darned confused.
I know I don't want to be with anyone else that I know at this moment in time. And I don't want to be anywhere else. I'm just not convinced that being here with him is making either of us as happy as we could be. But I've felt that before and we've brought it round. Tonight he's been as sweet as he could be and it feels like he's trying to make up for being narky last night.
And I have this huge turmoil inside my head that isn't making much sense to me let alone anyone else and I want to talk to him so he can make it all go away... But I'm afraid to get started in case it all goes pear-shaped and I just end up making things worse.
I'm going to try a Tarot reading in a bit and see if I can straighten my own head out *sigh*
A friend of mine said today that the internet is a giant, non-erasable billboard, which is why he never posts anything personal anywhere on-line. And he's right. But right now, I'm bloody thankful I have LJ!
- hovering around the door, I think
I spent part of today on the verge of tears, which I managed to keep in check because work is sooo not the place I want to have a breakdown. Especially where I am at the moment.
Tears were brought on partly (in a good way) by lassarina and raina28 being a pair of sweethearts *hugs back* and partly (in a bad way) because I'm just so darned confused.
I know I don't want to be with anyone else that I know at this moment in time. And I don't want to be anywhere else. I'm just not convinced that being here with him is making either of us as happy as we could be. But I've felt that before and we've brought it round. Tonight he's been as sweet as he could be and it feels like he's trying to make up for being narky last night.
And I have this huge turmoil inside my head that isn't making much sense to me let alone anyone else and I want to talk to him so he can make it all go away... But I'm afraid to get started in case it all goes pear-shaped and I just end up making things worse.
I'm going to try a Tarot reading in a bit and see if I can straighten my own head out *sigh*
A friend of mine said today that the internet is a giant, non-erasable billboard, which is why he never posts anything personal anywhere on-line. And he's right. But right now, I'm bloody thankful I have LJ!