Decisions, decisions
Happiness is...
- remembering who I really am
- thinking through what it means to be a person of integrity
- sausage butties for lunch
- exploring the possibilities of eating a banana whilst being fondled by my other half
So, it occurred to me today (you are allowed to shout 'about bloody time' down my ear) that relationships do not happen in isolation. How I behave with Wayne does have an impact on my relationship with Colin. I set a lot of store by being a person of integrity. I've believed that my behaviour in private mirrored my behaviour in public - and I realised today that it doesn't.
For example, there was an occasion when JB and Wayne were hugging and kissing in public. They were making-up after a long period of being at odds; they needed to do it because they were going to have to work more closely together in the future; I'm sure their relationship benefitted from it. However, I considered JB had over-stepped a mark by carrying on like that in front of the whole team. I had more self-respect than to behave in such a way.
Yet, without the kissing and the having-been-at-odds, my behaviour in private with Wayne on the Away Day wasn't really any better. OK, there were only the two of us there - but if I wouldn't do that in public, should I be doing it in private? And if I can't tell Colin about it...
So, I don't know how I will handle any future situations, except that I want to be able to tell Colin about it. I won't necessarily tell him because I'm not convinced he really HAS to know - but I want to have nothing to hide.
- remembering who I really am
- thinking through what it means to be a person of integrity
- sausage butties for lunch
- exploring the possibilities of eating a banana whilst being fondled by my other half
So, it occurred to me today (you are allowed to shout 'about bloody time' down my ear) that relationships do not happen in isolation. How I behave with Wayne does have an impact on my relationship with Colin. I set a lot of store by being a person of integrity. I've believed that my behaviour in private mirrored my behaviour in public - and I realised today that it doesn't.
For example, there was an occasion when JB and Wayne were hugging and kissing in public. They were making-up after a long period of being at odds; they needed to do it because they were going to have to work more closely together in the future; I'm sure their relationship benefitted from it. However, I considered JB had over-stepped a mark by carrying on like that in front of the whole team. I had more self-respect than to behave in such a way.
Yet, without the kissing and the having-been-at-odds, my behaviour in private with Wayne on the Away Day wasn't really any better. OK, there were only the two of us there - but if I wouldn't do that in public, should I be doing it in private? And if I can't tell Colin about it...
So, I don't know how I will handle any future situations, except that I want to be able to tell Colin about it. I won't necessarily tell him because I'm not convinced he really HAS to know - but I want to have nothing to hide.