Last updates 7 weeks ago
Within 7 weeks a lot has changed. A lot I never saw coming and a lot I wish would of never happened. But it did. And I can really only use the experiences to make myself a better person. That's all I can ask anyone to ever do when in a difficult situation, always be the better person. However, I don't think this summer will let me.
I miss Carbondale and Southern Illinois. Of course I miss my friends. The last weeks I had with them were amazing and more fun then I could of ever hoped for. But getting to know the surrounding area (off campus) has really been an eye opener. The beauty of the area is absolutely amazing. I'm extremely happy I have friends that know the area and show it to me.
Ok, so to reflect on the year. Yeah I survived my first year of college! *does touch down dance. Am I where I would of liked to of end in grades? no. Is it bad, no, just not where I wanted to be. This is fixable however. I now know that I need to put a lot more effect into my studies and classes if I want to get to where I want to be at. Which is fine. I can handle the work load and marching band. I want to see myself succeed. And I know I'm going to have to get some help for next year to do so. Things will have to change from what they were this year. But I can deal with that. I couldn't be happier that I switched my majors. Within the first week of being a Geography and Environmental Resource major specializing in Weather and Water Resources, I saw the difference. I knew I would love it here and wanted to be in the department. I can't wait for wait the years ahead bring. I couldn't be happier that I attend SIUC and I love all my friends so much. Life wouldn't be so good without them.
And now i'm at home for the summer. woopie... eh. not really. Not sure why, but I was dreading the coming summer. I think it's because I knew I'd miss SIU, SI, and my new friends too much. I'm at the point of depression almost. I haven't felt this way ever. Not even last summer when a terrible event occurred. I don't know what's wrong with me. My parents even noted my behavior. Now I know I just have to suck up whatever I'm going through and put on a smile. I hate worrying my parents. And I don't even know what's wrong with me... so yeah. Don't want to make a big deal about anything, but I just can't seem to find my happy go lucky self again.
I miss Carbondale and Southern Illinois. Of course I miss my friends. The last weeks I had with them were amazing and more fun then I could of ever hoped for. But getting to know the surrounding area (off campus) has really been an eye opener. The beauty of the area is absolutely amazing. I'm extremely happy I have friends that know the area and show it to me.
Ok, so to reflect on the year. Yeah I survived my first year of college! *does touch down dance. Am I where I would of liked to of end in grades? no. Is it bad, no, just not where I wanted to be. This is fixable however. I now know that I need to put a lot more effect into my studies and classes if I want to get to where I want to be at. Which is fine. I can handle the work load and marching band. I want to see myself succeed. And I know I'm going to have to get some help for next year to do so. Things will have to change from what they were this year. But I can deal with that. I couldn't be happier that I switched my majors. Within the first week of being a Geography and Environmental Resource major specializing in Weather and Water Resources, I saw the difference. I knew I would love it here and wanted to be in the department. I can't wait for wait the years ahead bring. I couldn't be happier that I attend SIUC and I love all my friends so much. Life wouldn't be so good without them.
And now i'm at home for the summer. woopie... eh. not really. Not sure why, but I was dreading the coming summer. I think it's because I knew I'd miss SIU, SI, and my new friends too much. I'm at the point of depression almost. I haven't felt this way ever. Not even last summer when a terrible event occurred. I don't know what's wrong with me. My parents even noted my behavior. Now I know I just have to suck up whatever I'm going through and put on a smile. I hate worrying my parents. And I don't even know what's wrong with me... so yeah. Don't want to make a big deal about anything, but I just can't seem to find my happy go lucky self again.