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What a day, God... man I should have went for a jog instead of that idiotic aerobics tape....
Jogging would help me get over this anger toward Anthony.
Oh well... tomorrow's another day to beat the pavement... just try to relax and not think about it.... or try not to.... eh, who the heck am I kidding. Oh well... diaries are a place to talk about whatever the writer wants. It's an option, when publicly blogging, for others to read it.... garbage or not.... therefore, I write as I please.
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It's amazing how so many people live out their lives in a selfish bubble. It really opens up my eyes to how being selfless is something totally an attribute of God and unnatural to man... no one is taught to be rude, selfish, or disrespectful... no parent needs to bother teaching their child to lie, cheat, or hit their siblings... it's inbred. We have a sinful nature snarling within ourselves, barking inside of a cage like a rabid wolf, gnawing at the steel bars in a wild attempt to break free and continue as it pleases. The flesh can be a scary thing when untamed. Our nature, when wild, can consume us like a rampant fire, licking away greedily at any source, fervently feeding its desires, which can be likened to a black hole, unquenched, unending, unyielding. The knowledge of this makes me of a grateful heart for the fact that I know this and am working towards being like God... and yet I fear for people like my brother, who are pretty much in the dark... :sighs: It's enough to drive me crazy with worry... but I just keep trying to give my frustrations to God... I'm finally learning what doing things "In His strength" and "trusting God" mean... it's taken forever and a day... but with my stubborn self, I guess that's why I started being a believer so early; God knew I'd take my time about learning His precepts...
Anyhow... enough reflecting on life and its humanistic limitations. I'm just glad I know the Lord and He is working in me... He is to be praised because He deserves to get glory for Himself... case closed, end of story. Everyone else that doesn't agree will find out the hard way that yes, they're wrong, yes they needa change for the glory of God, and yes, it is possible.
Jogging would help me get over this anger toward Anthony.
Oh well... tomorrow's another day to beat the pavement... just try to relax and not think about it.... or try not to.... eh, who the heck am I kidding. Oh well... diaries are a place to talk about whatever the writer wants. It's an option, when publicly blogging, for others to read it.... garbage or not.... therefore, I write as I please.
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It's amazing how so many people live out their lives in a selfish bubble. It really opens up my eyes to how being selfless is something totally an attribute of God and unnatural to man... no one is taught to be rude, selfish, or disrespectful... no parent needs to bother teaching their child to lie, cheat, or hit their siblings... it's inbred. We have a sinful nature snarling within ourselves, barking inside of a cage like a rabid wolf, gnawing at the steel bars in a wild attempt to break free and continue as it pleases. The flesh can be a scary thing when untamed. Our nature, when wild, can consume us like a rampant fire, licking away greedily at any source, fervently feeding its desires, which can be likened to a black hole, unquenched, unending, unyielding. The knowledge of this makes me of a grateful heart for the fact that I know this and am working towards being like God... and yet I fear for people like my brother, who are pretty much in the dark... :sighs: It's enough to drive me crazy with worry... but I just keep trying to give my frustrations to God... I'm finally learning what doing things "In His strength" and "trusting God" mean... it's taken forever and a day... but with my stubborn self, I guess that's why I started being a believer so early; God knew I'd take my time about learning His precepts...
Anyhow... enough reflecting on life and its humanistic limitations. I'm just glad I know the Lord and He is working in me... He is to be praised because He deserves to get glory for Himself... case closed, end of story. Everyone else that doesn't agree will find out the hard way that yes, they're wrong, yes they needa change for the glory of God, and yes, it is possible.