Perplexing post
This is the kind of post that I think this journal was really made for. A Thought Dump. A post where a slayer gets serious. No, that is not an oxymoron. So if you can not handle Deep Thoughts by Rona, please move along.
The academy training has gotten me thinking. There is so much strength contained within my body, and I have no clue where it comes from or how to really use it properly. I know how to make a fist and ensure it connects in the right spot to break someone's nose. But what I do not know is how to channel this strength, ensure it is used for something more than violence. Is that possible?
So I went to the library yesterday and began looking up books on ancient Goddesses and I ran into this woman. I think she saw how confused I was, and took it upon herself to help me. She was really kinda cool. She sat with me for over an hour talking and answering questions. She asked me if I was Wiccan. Asked her if that was a requirement for the Goddess stuff. She said no, but I am not sure she is convinced I told her the truth. I don't have magics. I have strength. And I want to learn how to channel it, and be at peace with it. Could not really tell her that though.
Any way - I checked out a couple books and am going to do some reading. See where I end up.
BTW, kicked some serious ass in class. Am in top 5.
The academy training has gotten me thinking. There is so much strength contained within my body, and I have no clue where it comes from or how to really use it properly. I know how to make a fist and ensure it connects in the right spot to break someone's nose. But what I do not know is how to channel this strength, ensure it is used for something more than violence. Is that possible?
So I went to the library yesterday and began looking up books on ancient Goddesses and I ran into this woman. I think she saw how confused I was, and took it upon herself to help me. She was really kinda cool. She sat with me for over an hour talking and answering questions. She asked me if I was Wiccan. Asked her if that was a requirement for the Goddess stuff. She said no, but I am not sure she is convinced I told her the truth. I don't have magics. I have strength. And I want to learn how to channel it, and be at peace with it. Could not really tell her that though.
Any way - I checked out a couple books and am going to do some reading. See where I end up.
BTW, kicked some serious ass in class. Am in top 5.