Calm and chaos theory. The persuit of normal.
Whoa.
Life is based around two types of time. Calm and Chaos. Calm being your monotonous everyday living. where things are projected in a certain way, rather dull, repetitive. You become so comfortable about your surroundings. Then boom. A bit of chaos. Which comes in more forms than normality.Death, pressure, romance, fear etc. Normal is the time in between these two. I wrote a little about something like this last time. But it's still very relative with whats been happening lately. By now in my life I've begun to expect the unexpected and I welcome it freely. However, sometimes the chaos is overbearing. In a lovely way. To wear I crave it like chocolate. I don't know if it's safe though. These Lovely nights. Having these little nuances come and go makes my brain grow fast. Adrenaline. Desire. Respect. blah.
My unexpected is dreamy, lofty, precious. And very scary. Maybe it's my personality. My adhd. I can't get away from desiring different. But I'm starting to realize... hang on I have a bloody nose. I'm starting to realize. I love every second of it.