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I was asked, if I wanted Will back, the way things were.
I said no.
I want to be wanted, want somebody to make an effort to keep my relationship going, to surprise me with flowers, or teddy bears, or to drive all night to make me smile.
Yes, it's petty, but I'd like my guy to do something for my birthday. Or for Valentine's Day. Or to make an effort at Christmas.
Will used to do that.
Now? Not so much. He'd been too busy - or just plain unwilling - to tell me about his day, the people he met, things he was doing. I was something like Number 12 on his priority list - even now, finding a job in Japan is more important to him than the fact he left me.
I want the guy back who gave a damn and put effort into me. I don't want somebody who things a relationship can run on autopilot.
I said no.
I want to be wanted, want somebody to make an effort to keep my relationship going, to surprise me with flowers, or teddy bears, or to drive all night to make me smile.
Yes, it's petty, but I'd like my guy to do something for my birthday. Or for Valentine's Day. Or to make an effort at Christmas.
Will used to do that.
Now? Not so much. He'd been too busy - or just plain unwilling - to tell me about his day, the people he met, things he was doing. I was something like Number 12 on his priority list - even now, finding a job in Japan is more important to him than the fact he left me.
I want the guy back who gave a damn and put effort into me. I don't want somebody who things a relationship can run on autopilot.