ONE THING AFTER THE OTHER, NOTHING EVER REALLY STOPS
Well everything is winding down and coming to a close. College and highschool, dammit, school period and sweeping everyone away from each other.
Ok, emo, drama king moment*
Back to reality. I am supposed to buying my car in like a month and a week and i havent saved up anything. I dont think i am going to get it. I think i am just going to wait and see what i have by christmas and then i go buy one for myself then. My boss said that he was going to pick me up for work today, but that was at 10 this morning and he isnt here yet so i have given up on that.
I dont get to update this thing as often as i would like to but i try to find time here and there. I am going to go out to T.J. Maxx, because one of my friends is supposed to be getting me a job there, or at least trying.
The city bus sucks major ass. And you know what suckes even more, i bought a new phone, and I have all of these pix and mini videos, and i dont know how to post them on here. Ahhh, that is annoying.
My grandparents are starting to trust me a little more. Now the dont give me any shit for coming in anytime of the night, as long as its not everynight, and they have been letting me drive the Durango. It is only to run their errands, but they didnt used to let me use it for anything. They didnt even want me to use it for prom. I guess everything is starting to look up again, even if it may be only for a brief moment.
I was beginning to forget about him. I was trying to move on. Why must you keep calling me, and why must i keep taking your calls?
Why cant i turn you away?
Why do i allow myslelf to let you continue to hurt me?
This is getting really old, but when it comes to your feelings, you cant really tell. Everyone around you gets really tired of hearing about it, and it is like it is the same old stuff, only we are so fucked up that we still allow ourselves to feel for that person, and that is where we hurt ourselves, and then our optimism allows them to hurt us. I am really anxious for school to start back, so i will have an outlet for all of this stress in my life.
On a happier note, my 18th b-day is in 29days, thats 4 weeks and 1 day, and I am going out and getting trashed, and i am not goin to feel bad about it. So if you are 18 or older or have a fake i.d call me if you would like to celebrate with me.
Ok, emo, drama king moment*
Back to reality. I am supposed to buying my car in like a month and a week and i havent saved up anything. I dont think i am going to get it. I think i am just going to wait and see what i have by christmas and then i go buy one for myself then. My boss said that he was going to pick me up for work today, but that was at 10 this morning and he isnt here yet so i have given up on that.
I dont get to update this thing as often as i would like to but i try to find time here and there. I am going to go out to T.J. Maxx, because one of my friends is supposed to be getting me a job there, or at least trying.
The city bus sucks major ass. And you know what suckes even more, i bought a new phone, and I have all of these pix and mini videos, and i dont know how to post them on here. Ahhh, that is annoying.
My grandparents are starting to trust me a little more. Now the dont give me any shit for coming in anytime of the night, as long as its not everynight, and they have been letting me drive the Durango. It is only to run their errands, but they didnt used to let me use it for anything. They didnt even want me to use it for prom. I guess everything is starting to look up again, even if it may be only for a brief moment.
I was beginning to forget about him. I was trying to move on. Why must you keep calling me, and why must i keep taking your calls?
Why cant i turn you away?
Why do i allow myslelf to let you continue to hurt me?
This is getting really old, but when it comes to your feelings, you cant really tell. Everyone around you gets really tired of hearing about it, and it is like it is the same old stuff, only we are so fucked up that we still allow ourselves to feel for that person, and that is where we hurt ourselves, and then our optimism allows them to hurt us. I am really anxious for school to start back, so i will have an outlet for all of this stress in my life.
On a happier note, my 18th b-day is in 29days, thats 4 weeks and 1 day, and I am going out and getting trashed, and i am not goin to feel bad about it. So if you are 18 or older or have a fake i.d call me if you would like to celebrate with me.