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aloha

Jul 10, 2012 18:11

HELLO LIVEJOURNAL, it's been a while. And by a while I mean like a week or something, but it feels like MUCH longer. I've been super busy recently, working 30 hours last week in 4 days (this is actually only impressive because 15 of them were on one day ((the 4th, no less, which was about 105 degrees and all of my work that day was physical))), and ( Read more... )

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darelose July 10 2012, 23:52:58 UTC

about him and Niall possibly being in love. Sometimes. Maybe.
I am eagerly awaiting the day that you want them to be in love all of the time, tbh.

But now I also want 100 fics about Zayn and Louis being partners-in-crime and it is an issue. Thanks for making a behind-the-scenes video that finally makes me understand the Louis/Zayn dynamic 1D, I'm not mad about it at all.

romasquerade July 11 2012, 00:24:51 UTC

When I do, it will be all your fault. I'm pretty sure if I ever read any of your pretend boyfriends fic it'll do me in.

IKR? I sort of hadn't bought it before, but then there was this video and just .... I have so many FEELINGS about it, because Zayn is so GOOFY in it when he's just with his friends and the people he knows, messing around and being a dork and looking so HAPPY that I just ..... I mean I'd always suspected he was like that, but it's nice to KNOW. I can definitely see how they're partners in crime, now. It seems silly that I'd ever considered they wouldn't be.

darelose July 11 2012, 00:38:32 UTC

I will take that blame and wear it with pride. When I make that Zayn/Niall feelings post on Tumblr finally, I will win you over, because it is a pairing of sunshine and light and happiness, unlike Zayn/Liam which makes me want to claw my face off. That is hyperbole but it hurts.

I totally don't know why I didn't believe it before. Maybe because we mostly see Zayn as very serious and quiet in interviews, so I really couldn't picture him being mischievous with Louis, despite them pointing it out? And then I saw that video and Zayn was running around being an idiot with Louis and getting slammed in doors by Paul and my feelings about Zayn Malik became even more nonsensical. HE LOOKS SO HAPPY. It made me beam at my computer like an idiot.

romasquerade July 11 2012, 01:31:52 UTC

People talking about how much they love something is my biggest weakness always. Like in the beginning of that book Blue Like Jazz, how that dude is like 'I never loved jazz until I watched someone who loved jazz play,' because that is the story of my life. (Fun fact that you didn't ask for: that dude's expression of his love of jazz in that manner made me want to apply to Reed University just because he went there??? I'm weird.)

I know, right? The persona he gives fans, for the most part, is quite aloof and a little subdued and I guess I've ... I've never like, doubted his goofiness or his happiness, but it's one thing to like.... abstractly think of that as there, and another entirely to see that, to see him looking and acting so happy, interacting so delightedly with everyone else, he just seems very.... carefree in a way we haven't seen yet from him and it slays me in the best ways.

darelose July 11 2012, 02:26:34 UTC

Ugh, exactly. I love when people frame things in a way I never saw before and I just LOVE enthusiasm. That's actually what eventually talked me around to Liam/Louis as a pairing. I haven't read that book! But I understand completely that feeling. Even if you don't necessarily appreciate the thing that someone loves, it's just such a joy to see people have such genuine feelings about it. (I love unsolicited fun facts! Because I frequently tell people fun facts about me. I think that is neat. I applied to UChicago because I had romanticized Chicago ever since I was thirteen and because of Andrew McMahon.)

Every time I think I can't love any of them more, they go and do something that charms me entirely and I just sit there and go WHYYYY.

romasquerade July 11 2012, 03:22:31 UTC

Truthfully, I haven't read more than the first ten pages either. They were a good ten pages, though! Anywho, yeah, it's just so.... I mean perhaps it's part of my personality because nothing makes me happier than other people being happy, but watching people be really animated about something just makes me animated about it. Even if I don't really GET it, I want to get it in a way I didn't before, and yeah. It's EXCITING. (OH GOOD, me too. That is also why I applied to UChicago tbh. That and because it's like Hogwarts in a way that, I have learned since actually attending, most old schools probably are ( ... )

darelose July 11 2012, 03:43:48 UTC

I like when people get excited about things because I feel like, so often, people are really reticent to show genuine emotion for fear of being judged. So it's just really, really great to see someone love something. It just makes me happy, and it honestly makes me like people I haven't particularly cared for before, even if just for that moment, because loving something deeply is so utterly charming to me. (YES the UChicago email that talked about how they were like Hogwarts was one of the best emails I've ever gotten -- I'm 100% sure that I mentioned it in my essay as one of my reasons for wanting to attend. Wait, do you go to UChicago?)

I can't understand not being even a little charmed by them. Even if you don't absolutely love them, I can't understand hating them. Like, I can understand not being into their music, but seeing them and how awesome they are and how much they love what they do and how grateful they are that they get to do it, it's just like. It's almost overwhelming sometimes. That sounds so sappy but despite all ( ... )

romasquerade July 11 2012, 04:50:47 UTC

Yeah, totally! Most people are just so complacent, so willing to not love anything full-heartedly, and that makes me SO sad. And to just see someone.... just loving something, and believing in it, it's just the best thing, you know? Conviction is my favorite thing ever, whether someone has that for their favorite band/book/movie, for their career path (or lack thereof), just.... believing in something and loving it with all that you have is, I honestly believe, the best thing you can have in your life. Idk. (I KNOW RIGHT? God, UChi had the best paraphernalia, I loved all their stupid postcards and everything. My 'Why UChicago' essay was pretty much "Idk y'all I've loved this school since I was 14, you send out really great literature, and also I visited when it was freezing cold and pouring rain in November and still somehow loved the shit out of it, so... This is Big." And yes, I do! *_ ( ... )

darelose July 11 2012, 06:11:44 UTC

I agree. I almost can't understand when people don't have at least one thing they love fully. Like, how do you interact with things in such a distant manner. I don't know, maybe it's because I get easily attached to things but when I love something a lot, I think about it a lot and talk about it a lot and want new perspectives on it all the time. I basically just consume everything I can that is related to it. (That is EXACTLY how my essay to my university went. I visited in eighth grade as part of a top 10% of my class trip, and I completely fell in love with it. I talked about how I pictured it being a place I could feel at home and it was literally the most exciting thing ever when I got in. I love my school SO MUCH.)

I agree with everything you said here. They're great because it's so easy to love all of them and it just makes me really, really happy. I also don't think I've been this actively happy in a fandom pretty much ever. Ugh, even this conversation is making me happy because I love talking about how much I love them.

romasquerade July 11 2012, 06:35:00 UTC

Your feelings are also mine, I am coming to recognize, in many many aspects. This included. I'm definitely a go big or go home person in terms of getting attached to things and loving them, there's ... very little middle ground for me, something either has my full attention and all of my love and devotion, or why bother? (Loving your school is FANTASTIC. It's the best feeling ever, really. The first time I cried with joy was upon acceptance to UChicago, and I'm just really glad that I didn't get there and find out it was actually terrible, idk. I had so many expectations and it somehow met all of them and like... how fantastic is that. !!!! I have a lot of feelings about a lot of things, SORRY. Not sorry. I'm gonna ask you where you go to school, just because I'm curious, but feel free not to tell me if you aren't comfortable with that/don't want to for any reason ( ... )

darelose July 11 2012, 06:56:43 UTC

Yes, I am that illustration of the light switch that keeps going around on Tumblr: I'm either fully invested or I don't really care at all. (Ugh I am so paranoid about telling people where I go to school because it is so small, but I am trusting you won't crazy murder me, since you aren't even from around here. I go to University of Puget Sound. It's a really small, private, liberal arts school. I am so thrilled my school met all my expectations. I love when you are doing something at school, and maybe it's not even a big thing, and you are just hit by this surge of fondness for your school. I just love things that I know are quintessentially UPS because it makes me feel like I belong to something and that everyone else is part of that same thing. I don't know if I'm articulating this right but it's just. I love it a lot ( ... )

romasquerade July 12 2012, 00:55:15 UTC

We are the same person, possibly. (I'm screened your comment just in case for some odd reason someone on my flist IS some crazy murderer (I don't think any of them are), because I totally understand being wary -- thanks for trusting me with that information, I feel like we are ~legit friends~ now (although tell me if I'm being too forward or something). ANYWAY, yeah, it's just.... Like the little things, the ones that seem insignificant but are so wholly personal to your school that make you just stop for a second and be like "this is a place, this is a community that I'm a part of and that I belong to," it's really special. I've personally moved around a lot in my life and so, like.... I don't know, the concept of "home" has always been one that I've struggled with, with fitting into something and feeling like I belong there, and it was really nice to come to school and feel so ... at home, really. But I think I know what you mean ( ... )

darelose July 12 2012, 14:03:06 UTC

Of course you're not being too forward! And I appreciate you screening my comment, even though I'm also sure your flist isn't full of crazy murderers. Exactly! For example, my school has a clock and bell tower (as I'm sure most schools do? I'm not actually sure, but universities have a lot of things in common) and it tolls a full song everyday at 2:00 pm. I just love stuff that's unique to my school, because it becomes this experience you have that's common to everyone else experiencing it with you, even if you have nothing else in common. I've lived in the same place my whole life, so I have no idea what it's like to move around a lot, but I imagine it's difficult. What places have you lived, if you don't mind my asking ( ... )

romasquerade July 12 2012, 19:16:48 UTC

You know, I'm not sure if my school has a proper clock and bell tower. We have a bell tower on one of our chapels that on the hour will play anything from the HP theme to the Pokemon theme to classical pieces to who knows what, but I think our only big clock is on one of our libraries. But yeah, I know what you mean. All of these people have something in common with you even if there's nothing besides the school you go to -- the school you chose to go to (for the most part) -- that's still something. It's pretty cool ( ... )

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