taken from genna, taken from a lj quiz
my livejournal headline is a line from one of my favorite movies, heathers. i forget the exact dialogue, but it was spoken to make a point that no matter if you act right or wrong, the world remains as it is.
my default picture is one i randomly found of the ocean. one of the best memories i have is when i visiting the beaches near monterrey, california when i was about nine. i remember sitting on the sand and staring out into the waves near sunset and being completely at peace. i know it hard to think of a nine year old needing a sense of peace, but i did. ever since then, whenever i cannot fall asleep due to thought after thought, i close my eyes and think of the ocean and match my breathing to the sound in my head of the waves lapping onto the shore...and i fall asleep.
jesse is the first person on my 'top 8'. he is the only person, as of yet, that i have ever shared all of my painful memories with. i trust him completely.
my current relationship status is...complicated, but its my own doing.
right now i am wearing the same pair of jeans i have had for three or four years, a white t-shirt, a white belt, a long scarf and a maroon, velvet blazer.
my current problem is realizing who i am, what exactly has made me this person, and what i need to do to become the person i want to be.
what do i love most? days like today, where everything is perfect; being held by someone who makes me feel safe; kissing; taking the perfect picture; staring into someones eyes.
i find happiness in reading the perfect book, taking long naps in the middle of the day, watching a movie that makes me feel every emotion i possess, laughing until my face hurts.
i have only one true regret in life, a very bad decision i made at one time that led to a very stupid experience. i keep it to myself, because it reminds me of what is important.
when i was really young, i was playing in a river near a waterfall with one of my cousins. we were both strong swimmers, but we got in too deep. i reached out to grap my cousin for help, but accidentally pulled him underwater. he thought i was playing, and pushed me down as well. i panicked, and at that point thought i was going to drown. my uncle appeared out of nowhere and pulled me back above water. then he cursed because he had dropped his cigarettes.
i am a very guarded person. when i was young, i used to tell lies about every little thing in order to protect myself. i never wanted anyone to know who i really was. i dont lie anymore, but i still have trouble opening up and saying exactly what i feel or think.
messenger bird's song, by bright eyes, is stuck in my head right now. it is probably my favorite by him, and it was the last song i listened to today. the lyrics always stick with me.
if i could marry any celebrity, i would marry...i dont know. probably johnny depp. he's just such a beautiful man...plus an amazing actor.
hmm...im not too sure who will use this same quiz again. like i said, i took it from genna...i guess we'll see.
the same birthday...i dont know. barry manilow, found it on google.
who do i have a crush on? i dont crush, havent in a long time.
i dont think ive ever vandalized private property...unless you count writing a smile on roberts arm from time to time in high school.
ive never been in a physical fight, but ive had my fair share of playful wrestling. oh wait, in fifth grade this girl named deidre got mad at me for...something, cant remember, and pushed my head into the wall of the gym. i hit her in the face. then we both went to the principals office.
the only time i have ever sung in front of anyone, when i wasnt drunk, was when i was twelve or so and in choir at church.
the first thing i notice on a guy are his eyes, then his smile.
my favorite starbucks drink is a vanilla latte, but on really cold days i like to sit outside with a mocha.
its been brought to my attention, especially lately, that i am extremely critical of myself...which is certainly damaging.
i love it when it storms so bad it gives me goosebumps. ever since i was a kid, i have loved to sit outside in the wind and rain, and count how many mississippi's there are between the lighting and the first roll of thunder.
i hate it when people tell me i look like the girl from the gilmore girls/sin city. curse you, alexis bledel.
i am only 18 years old, but i feel much older.
i dont remember wearing a watch since i was fourteen or so. too binding.
i have pierced ears, one in each. ive toyed with the idea of getting a second hole, as well as a lip ring, but im glad i didnt go through with it.
my least favorite food is chicken and dumplings. ick.
the most beautiful place ive ever seen was at the top of this mountain in maine, in arcadia national park. its the eastern most point in the united states, and when the sun sets, all of bar harbor and the surrounding ocean, lakes and river glow.
i like the idea of shopping, but whenever i set out to shop for a specific thing or purpose, like a new pair of jeans or a bathing suit, i can never find what i want and just get pissed off.
i spent my last $3.05 today on a vanilla latte, but not from starbucks. i needed to cheer myself up.
the last person i spoke to on the phone today was jesse.
my desktop background is solid black with a small portrait of audrey hepburn in the bottom right corner.
i have a theory with manny that redheads are either very attractive or not attractive at all. i dated a redhead over a year ago, and he was pretty good-looking, to me at least...but its not my preference.
i knew a pair of twins a long time ago at church camp, and i could never tell which was which.
my entire family is off in some way. last christmas my aunt actually guilt-tripped me for taking the last piece of chocolate pie, and my uncle likes to intimidate the people im dating by asking for i.d.
last night i watched fried green tomatoes with erica on tv. we both cried when ruth died.
the last book i read was...white oleander by janet fitch. ive read it about four or five times. its amazing.
at present, im enrolled at UNT, but i plan to get into one of my choice art schools in new york in a few years.
my favorite pair of pants are the ones im wearing now.
i like to party sometimes, ive taken quite a liking to the occasional scene-dance-party. the best party ive been to all year was the 90s party at yellowhouse.
i like my eggs dry and scrambled hard, with a little bit of salt an pepper. and if im eating them with waffles or pancakes, they have to be on a separate plate so as to avoid syrup contact.
right now i dont have a job, so any alternative would be delightful.
what the world needs now is a new president of the united states.
my dad always says "talk to the hand", but only when he's really mad and im trying to argue with him. its pretty hard to not laugh in his face.
my number one pet peeve is people who talk during movies. im not saying im quiet the entire time, but i at least can wait for a silent part and shut up when people start talking.
human beings are amazing, and full of potential.
my goal for today is to let go of this shitty mood.
my default picture is one i randomly found of the ocean. one of the best memories i have is when i visiting the beaches near monterrey, california when i was about nine. i remember sitting on the sand and staring out into the waves near sunset and being completely at peace. i know it hard to think of a nine year old needing a sense of peace, but i did. ever since then, whenever i cannot fall asleep due to thought after thought, i close my eyes and think of the ocean and match my breathing to the sound in my head of the waves lapping onto the shore...and i fall asleep.
jesse is the first person on my 'top 8'. he is the only person, as of yet, that i have ever shared all of my painful memories with. i trust him completely.
my current relationship status is...complicated, but its my own doing.
right now i am wearing the same pair of jeans i have had for three or four years, a white t-shirt, a white belt, a long scarf and a maroon, velvet blazer.
my current problem is realizing who i am, what exactly has made me this person, and what i need to do to become the person i want to be.
what do i love most? days like today, where everything is perfect; being held by someone who makes me feel safe; kissing; taking the perfect picture; staring into someones eyes.
i find happiness in reading the perfect book, taking long naps in the middle of the day, watching a movie that makes me feel every emotion i possess, laughing until my face hurts.
i have only one true regret in life, a very bad decision i made at one time that led to a very stupid experience. i keep it to myself, because it reminds me of what is important.
when i was really young, i was playing in a river near a waterfall with one of my cousins. we were both strong swimmers, but we got in too deep. i reached out to grap my cousin for help, but accidentally pulled him underwater. he thought i was playing, and pushed me down as well. i panicked, and at that point thought i was going to drown. my uncle appeared out of nowhere and pulled me back above water. then he cursed because he had dropped his cigarettes.
i am a very guarded person. when i was young, i used to tell lies about every little thing in order to protect myself. i never wanted anyone to know who i really was. i dont lie anymore, but i still have trouble opening up and saying exactly what i feel or think.
messenger bird's song, by bright eyes, is stuck in my head right now. it is probably my favorite by him, and it was the last song i listened to today. the lyrics always stick with me.
if i could marry any celebrity, i would marry...i dont know. probably johnny depp. he's just such a beautiful man...plus an amazing actor.
hmm...im not too sure who will use this same quiz again. like i said, i took it from genna...i guess we'll see.
the same birthday...i dont know. barry manilow, found it on google.
who do i have a crush on? i dont crush, havent in a long time.
i dont think ive ever vandalized private property...unless you count writing a smile on roberts arm from time to time in high school.
ive never been in a physical fight, but ive had my fair share of playful wrestling. oh wait, in fifth grade this girl named deidre got mad at me for...something, cant remember, and pushed my head into the wall of the gym. i hit her in the face. then we both went to the principals office.
the only time i have ever sung in front of anyone, when i wasnt drunk, was when i was twelve or so and in choir at church.
the first thing i notice on a guy are his eyes, then his smile.
my favorite starbucks drink is a vanilla latte, but on really cold days i like to sit outside with a mocha.
its been brought to my attention, especially lately, that i am extremely critical of myself...which is certainly damaging.
i love it when it storms so bad it gives me goosebumps. ever since i was a kid, i have loved to sit outside in the wind and rain, and count how many mississippi's there are between the lighting and the first roll of thunder.
i hate it when people tell me i look like the girl from the gilmore girls/sin city. curse you, alexis bledel.
i am only 18 years old, but i feel much older.
i dont remember wearing a watch since i was fourteen or so. too binding.
i have pierced ears, one in each. ive toyed with the idea of getting a second hole, as well as a lip ring, but im glad i didnt go through with it.
my least favorite food is chicken and dumplings. ick.
the most beautiful place ive ever seen was at the top of this mountain in maine, in arcadia national park. its the eastern most point in the united states, and when the sun sets, all of bar harbor and the surrounding ocean, lakes and river glow.
i like the idea of shopping, but whenever i set out to shop for a specific thing or purpose, like a new pair of jeans or a bathing suit, i can never find what i want and just get pissed off.
i spent my last $3.05 today on a vanilla latte, but not from starbucks. i needed to cheer myself up.
the last person i spoke to on the phone today was jesse.
my desktop background is solid black with a small portrait of audrey hepburn in the bottom right corner.
i have a theory with manny that redheads are either very attractive or not attractive at all. i dated a redhead over a year ago, and he was pretty good-looking, to me at least...but its not my preference.
i knew a pair of twins a long time ago at church camp, and i could never tell which was which.
my entire family is off in some way. last christmas my aunt actually guilt-tripped me for taking the last piece of chocolate pie, and my uncle likes to intimidate the people im dating by asking for i.d.
last night i watched fried green tomatoes with erica on tv. we both cried when ruth died.
the last book i read was...white oleander by janet fitch. ive read it about four or five times. its amazing.
at present, im enrolled at UNT, but i plan to get into one of my choice art schools in new york in a few years.
my favorite pair of pants are the ones im wearing now.
i like to party sometimes, ive taken quite a liking to the occasional scene-dance-party. the best party ive been to all year was the 90s party at yellowhouse.
i like my eggs dry and scrambled hard, with a little bit of salt an pepper. and if im eating them with waffles or pancakes, they have to be on a separate plate so as to avoid syrup contact.
right now i dont have a job, so any alternative would be delightful.
what the world needs now is a new president of the united states.
my dad always says "talk to the hand", but only when he's really mad and im trying to argue with him. its pretty hard to not laugh in his face.
my number one pet peeve is people who talk during movies. im not saying im quiet the entire time, but i at least can wait for a silent part and shut up when people start talking.
human beings are amazing, and full of potential.
my goal for today is to let go of this shitty mood.