i keep making a to do list but nothing gets crossed out

[romanticynicism]

ugh, i dont know what my deal is.
im just so stressed and overwhelmed, and its like everyday theres another fifty things that i have to deal with...

make time for him and her and that person.
make time for school.
dont be in a bad mood.
go to class.
dont fight with jesse.
dont fight with erica about jesse.
be supportive.
study.
sleep.
dont get sick.
eat.
keep dad happy.
find money, somehow.
keep the grades up.
dont waste film on shitty pictures, but get the photography assignment done on time.
do this and that and then do it all over again day after day after fucking day.

im exhausted. between balancing my friends and my family and school and my relationship and my own emotional stability.
fuck man. i just need a day off.
but spring break isnt going to give me shit.
its just going to be a long week spent avoiding my dad as much as possible.
i wish i was going somewhere...anywhere.