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Yesterday was exactly 1 month since we went live on the new system. One more thing got dumped on the front desk. Apparently that was the straw that broke this particular camel's back and, since no one else in the office will stand up for shit...well. I had a MAJOR meltdown with sharp words and anger and frustration and hard truths and resignation (not the resigning from work kind). I was angry and upset and because of that I started crying, and I HATE it when that happens, because I'm not sad or weak, I'm TOO ANGRY to control all of my emotions.
I know it wasn't all work - it's frustrating enough to cause that, but it's also this family stuff hanging over my head as well as the fact that my kid is turning 13 and I'm about to start my period and there's just a LOT of everything. And, apparently, as I was emailing S to tell her all of this, she was emailing me to tell me about Mikey and Sarah and how SHE was having a horrible day and apparently yesterday just SUCKED.
But then last night I went and saw The Doubleclicks and Molly Lewis and it was great fun and funny and awesome and they are pretty amazing ladies, and it was MUCH needed. I also colored a picture, and Andrea took a picture of it because IT WAS AWESOME. And I will tweet it when I get that far in the day.
Today is the kidlet's 13th birthday and we'll go out for our family dinner like always. Normally I invite the aunt and uncle involved in the whole impending family issue tomorrow and they've come every year, even when all the stuff between them and my mom first happened, but this year, for the first time, they've declined to come. Now, I don't know that it has anything to do with that, but I imagine they don't know my mom's not coming, because she hasn't told anyone else, so. It could be a million other things, but whatever. No big deal. My sister did finally respond that she'll be there, so I won't be the sole member of my family representing.
Today I have a million zillion comments to answer (only a VERY SLIGHT exaggeration) and a project to finish and laundry and finish uploading the buffy fic and start uploading the dawson's fic and update the post for "fixmein45" and aaaah. So much.
I announced it on Twitter to all the relevant and interested parties, I think, but I should also commemorate it here - yesterday was Happy Sex Day! 13 years ago last night was the first night Joey and Pacey slept together on Dawson's Creek. It was a horrible episode with an AMAZING teaser-trailer, and Joshua Jackson was...well, amazing as only Pacey Witter can be. And then the next day I had a baby. \o/\o/ I feel I should make sourdough bread and watch Evita (what I did while I waited for the doctor to call me back and tell me if my test results meant I had to come back to the hospital and deliver. [an amusing aside - when people call and tell us they're pregnant, we base their first visit as well as their due date off the first day of their last menstrual period. And today is officially the first day of my last menstrual period. And that cracks me up. It'd be funnier if the kidlet hadn't been 6 weeks early, but whatever. HUMOR ME, internets.]
Anyway, enough stalling. Shower and then I'll get cracking. o__o
I know it wasn't all work - it's frustrating enough to cause that, but it's also this family stuff hanging over my head as well as the fact that my kid is turning 13 and I'm about to start my period and there's just a LOT of everything. And, apparently, as I was emailing S to tell her all of this, she was emailing me to tell me about Mikey and Sarah and how SHE was having a horrible day and apparently yesterday just SUCKED.
But then last night I went and saw The Doubleclicks and Molly Lewis and it was great fun and funny and awesome and they are pretty amazing ladies, and it was MUCH needed. I also colored a picture, and Andrea took a picture of it because IT WAS AWESOME. And I will tweet it when I get that far in the day.
Today is the kidlet's 13th birthday and we'll go out for our family dinner like always. Normally I invite the aunt and uncle involved in the whole impending family issue tomorrow and they've come every year, even when all the stuff between them and my mom first happened, but this year, for the first time, they've declined to come. Now, I don't know that it has anything to do with that, but I imagine they don't know my mom's not coming, because she hasn't told anyone else, so. It could be a million other things, but whatever. No big deal. My sister did finally respond that she'll be there, so I won't be the sole member of my family representing.
Today I have a million zillion comments to answer (only a VERY SLIGHT exaggeration) and a project to finish and laundry and finish uploading the buffy fic and start uploading the dawson's fic and update the post for "fixmein45" and aaaah. So much.
I announced it on Twitter to all the relevant and interested parties, I think, but I should also commemorate it here - yesterday was Happy Sex Day! 13 years ago last night was the first night Joey and Pacey slept together on Dawson's Creek. It was a horrible episode with an AMAZING teaser-trailer, and Joshua Jackson was...well, amazing as only Pacey Witter can be. And then the next day I had a baby. \o/\o/ I feel I should make sourdough bread and watch Evita (what I did while I waited for the doctor to call me back and tell me if my test results meant I had to come back to the hospital and deliver. [an amusing aside - when people call and tell us they're pregnant, we base their first visit as well as their due date off the first day of their last menstrual period. And today is officially the first day of my last menstrual period. And that cracks me up. It'd be funnier if the kidlet hadn't been 6 weeks early, but whatever. HUMOR ME, internets.]
Anyway, enough stalling. Shower and then I'll get cracking. o__o