Going down swinging
My thoughts are with all the people in Boston today. I'm glad to know that all of my people are safe. <3333
Things:
After the amazing two days of Becketness, I fell into a crappy spiral of exhaustion and berating myself. It was mostly my own fault in feeling entitled and setting up expectations, and also the sudden fear that 'Oh, god. I'm THAT fan" and the fact that he probably thinks I'm as crazy as the girl *I* think is crazy. So that was fun. Now I'm all paranoid about seeing him again. I like the M&G because I think he's awesome and spending time listening to him and talking to him is great, but now I'm going to feel weird forever. I'm glad he loved me_maneuver's mask though because she is crazy-talented.
Next week there is a Bingo night that the PTA is putting on, and by the PTA, I mostly mean me. I've got most of the details down and I thought I was doing really well, but then we had a meeting tonight and one of the ladies jumped all over me about stuff, and now I feel super behind. And a potential something else got put on my plate, and while I'm mostly fine with it, I feel like "here's an idea that a few people had" became "you do it, we're too busy". Which I do get, because they all work at the school 5 days a week and they work hard, but none of them have kids at home, and I work 30+ hours a week too. Still. I guess I'm doing it. :/
After all my panicking, the passport people have received my passport and cashed my check, so I'm assuming things are progressing on that front.
I have an overwhelming urge to rip everything off/out of my desk and get rid of 99% of it. I may at least reorganize. Or, you know, use some of the stuff I have before I buy anything else.
Speaking of buying - my husband told me he was looking at buying a new lens for his camera, a roughly $100 value. Today he came home with a $600 camera. And not the lens. Which he still wants to buy. I guess it's good that we got our tax return.
I got my copy of "Save Rock and Roll", but when I play it, it says it's the "alternate cover version" which, as it has the cover they've been promoting, I'm a little confused by. Explain yourself, gentlemen.
Ugh. I don't know. I feel like a shitty friend lately. Not good enough. Not anything enough.
Okay, emails for PTA stuff, figuring out what's left for bingo night, crossword puzzles, bed.
Things:
After the amazing two days of Becketness, I fell into a crappy spiral of exhaustion and berating myself. It was mostly my own fault in feeling entitled and setting up expectations, and also the sudden fear that 'Oh, god. I'm THAT fan" and the fact that he probably thinks I'm as crazy as the girl *I* think is crazy. So that was fun. Now I'm all paranoid about seeing him again. I like the M&G because I think he's awesome and spending time listening to him and talking to him is great, but now I'm going to feel weird forever. I'm glad he loved me_maneuver's mask though because she is crazy-talented.
Next week there is a Bingo night that the PTA is putting on, and by the PTA, I mostly mean me. I've got most of the details down and I thought I was doing really well, but then we had a meeting tonight and one of the ladies jumped all over me about stuff, and now I feel super behind. And a potential something else got put on my plate, and while I'm mostly fine with it, I feel like "here's an idea that a few people had" became "you do it, we're too busy". Which I do get, because they all work at the school 5 days a week and they work hard, but none of them have kids at home, and I work 30+ hours a week too. Still. I guess I'm doing it. :/
After all my panicking, the passport people have received my passport and cashed my check, so I'm assuming things are progressing on that front.
I have an overwhelming urge to rip everything off/out of my desk and get rid of 99% of it. I may at least reorganize. Or, you know, use some of the stuff I have before I buy anything else.
Speaking of buying - my husband told me he was looking at buying a new lens for his camera, a roughly $100 value. Today he came home with a $600 camera. And not the lens. Which he still wants to buy. I guess it's good that we got our tax return.
I got my copy of "Save Rock and Roll", but when I play it, it says it's the "alternate cover version" which, as it has the cover they've been promoting, I'm a little confused by. Explain yourself, gentlemen.
Ugh. I don't know. I feel like a shitty friend lately. Not good enough. Not anything enough.
Okay, emails for PTA stuff, figuring out what's left for bingo night, crossword puzzles, bed.