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I didn't get half of the things done that I needed to have done today. So what, oh well. The world will go on.
Right now I cannot help but feel a tad lonely. I am not even sure why, this is such a weird feeling. It is not one of total loneliness. It almost feels like the exact opposite of one of my favorite quotes, "The wide world is about you. You can forever fence yourself in, but you cannot forever fence it out." I feel like, at the moment something along these lines is more appropriate, "The wide world is about me. I cannot forever fence myself in, but it can certainly forever fence me out."
I am having this problem, wherein my mind is running around in circles. There are just some people who do not allow me to feel comfortable around them. Whose problem is this? Is it mine for being too intimidated by certain people (my hyperactivity changes to sheer boringess), or is it their problem for intimidating me? Or does it really matter? I do not want to stay in my comfort zone, because in the end a comfort zone is smothering. But it is so confusing the way things work sometimes. You step completely out of your comfort zone in total bravery and you are delivered a slap in the face. What does one do then? I suppose we have no choice but to endure the embarassment and try even harder to allow our true selves to come out. So, that is just what I'll do.
Forgive me for being so esoteric.
Right now I cannot help but feel a tad lonely. I am not even sure why, this is such a weird feeling. It is not one of total loneliness. It almost feels like the exact opposite of one of my favorite quotes, "The wide world is about you. You can forever fence yourself in, but you cannot forever fence it out." I feel like, at the moment something along these lines is more appropriate, "The wide world is about me. I cannot forever fence myself in, but it can certainly forever fence me out."
I am having this problem, wherein my mind is running around in circles. There are just some people who do not allow me to feel comfortable around them. Whose problem is this? Is it mine for being too intimidated by certain people (my hyperactivity changes to sheer boringess), or is it their problem for intimidating me? Or does it really matter? I do not want to stay in my comfort zone, because in the end a comfort zone is smothering. But it is so confusing the way things work sometimes. You step completely out of your comfort zone in total bravery and you are delivered a slap in the face. What does one do then? I suppose we have no choice but to endure the embarassment and try even harder to allow our true selves to come out. So, that is just what I'll do.
Forgive me for being so esoteric.