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Yeah hi guys its me finally. I know its been awhile but its ok cuz Im not dead!! Yeah Kaytie I love that entry about us when we get old. Thats great and thats exactly how its going to be and you know this man!! But yeah Im scared cuz Im not sure if I can have our Saturday night party this weekend, my mom threatned me. Im very scared!! But its ok cuz Billys coming back to see me at the en of the month the bad thing is, is that his best friend will be with him and you know who that is. But yeah today is a pretty intresting day. Its like I cant feel pain and I dont know how I feel inside. Maybe I died internaly. Yeah I havent really told anyone this but this needs to be said. I feel raped and Im not sure I want to announce this on the internet but ahh what the hell its easier then telling the people who care face to face. I let a guy in my house that I met online when I stayed home sick on Monday. And Ive done this many times maybe I trust people a little to much. But this guy came over and we sat down and watched a movie. Well he started touching me and I told him to stop it but it wouldnt stop. he held me down and di his business then went to the gas station and bought me some smokes, like that was going to make everything all better. I mean I met some of my best friends online and that was the first time anything bad ever happened. Im not sure what to do but to try to forget about it, just like I do with everything else. You know the funniest thing about this is that he wore tighty whiteys, thats pretty fucking funny. I wasnt sure how to say this but at least its out now. I thinkIm done meeting people on here Im scared for the rest of my life. And you know what life sucks so hopefully mine will end soon. Maybe through my own fault, a car accident or a murder but at least it would be all over. Im not sure what else I want to say all I know is that Kaytie Im sorry for not telling you earlier I mean you were over here enough. And I can hide things pretty well cant I?? You couldnt even tell that something was wrong. I hope this wont ruin anything I have between any of my friends cuz Im not sure what Im going to do. Hopefully God will take me out of this puzzling life and not make me do it for myself cuz I really dont want to g to hell. But thanks to all my girls I love you all!! Everytime Im with you it s just a blast and its never boring. And Im so sorry for being such a bitch last Saturday about the whole being quiet thing. Its ok though hopefully nobodys mad at me. Im going to go now schools almost ou not that it matters cuz I didnt go anyways. And you know what life is gay, I cant believe I got a underage smoking ticket and then as if that day couldnt get any worse I had to sit in in-school all day. And then if that wasnt bad enough Roxanne came in god help me cant you just kill me or something. I wonder if I died before my court date if my mom would get stuck paying the ticket?? ....lol..... that would be pretty fucking funny Well no for real this time Im done typing. Thanks for reading this whole thing if you lasted that long. Have a great day i know I wont have one of those in awhile especialy if I cant have my Saturday Fling.