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Yeah I dont know what to say..... Except for Im really upset and I dont know what to do about it. I cant just forget about it and if I stay this way Im going to die. Well people that saw me tonight know whats going on but for those of you who didnt... It hit me really hard whe I finally accepted the fact that my best friend Billy is moving to Florida and not coming back. Yeah we are really close and hopefully we stay that way. I cant stop crying feel as if he is dying or something. It hurt me evenwore when h said he was going to walk over here and wound up going to some girls house that he hates insted of comig by me. I just cant stop crying and I feel really shitty. I wish these things wouldnt happen to me all the time. Im really going to miss him nobdy understands hat me and him have been through together and I know Ill probablly see him again, but I ove this kid with everything I hve nd I dont know why it has to be like this. I mean yeah I have Kaytie and Kelly and Heather and Holly but nobody will be my Billy and Im not sure wat to do about it. Im trying to think it will all be the same cuz we will still talk and stuff but I just wnt be able to come over anymore and you know looking at all this it really hurts me. I dont want to be alone and I dont want to be depressed again... but thats the way things are going right now it just might end up that way. Dont get me wrong guys I love you all but this is so hard on me. Like everyone keps saying it will be ok trying t make me feel better about this and I know it will be ok but its not ok now. Why does life have to be so hard!!!! Well I think Im going to go for now I might end up writing later. Thanks for being here for me everyone!!