where do i go from here?
i dont know what to do right now. today was a good day until now. i was calm for the first time in forever, and it was great. easy day at work for once and everything. then i checked my emails and now im right back to being severly depressed. what happened? im talking to crystal and shes helping soo much. but im still down as hell. the only thing i can ask myself is why?? thats it.... just plain old why? anyways, ive decided that when its my time to go, i just wanna die in her arms....