just dont know anymore
the last few days have been eventful let me tell you. monday night i spent the night at a hotel. then we woke up at 430 and went to a day long physical exam. i passed that and then swore in to the army. thats still crazy as hell. no one saw that coming, not even me really. man that doctor was nuts. do you smoke pot? haha acid? lsd? haha he was crazy. i think he did all the drugs lol. well and then the past few days i havent hung out with anyone really. mostly i have been driving around by myself and thinking. when i am with people i just sit around sad and shit. and then tonight everyone was all hurt that i havent hung out with them the past two days. i feel bad for that i just had to get shit in order. 31 days and i ship off to fort jackson. will anyone miss me? i am really not sure. well i guess people will. i guess they are just shocked i am leaving. sort of like my whole family. i still havent told me dad...he will fucking flip out. wow that will be good times. anyways after i talked to chelly tonite for a minute and she told me how everyone felt.i just drove around and then stopped at sonic for like an hour. just sitting there starring off into space. then i drove out to south park to kim's house and hung out for a bit. we did kareoke. at first i wouldnt sing. but yeah then toby keith and me busted it out haha wow i was a loser. but after the first song i couldnt stop singing. i was acting just as goofy as all of her parents drunk friends lol. it was nice to see that you really can have wonderful times without drinking. i learned that from a very special girl a while ago. thank you. anyways i leave in 31 days. holy shit man. its scary and extremely exciting all at the same time. i think everything will be jsut fine. its nice to know that no one here in the ville thinks that i can make it. thats even more drive i guess for me to make it through basic and come home a soldier. and yeah well i had 5 things that i wanted to do before i shipped out. and yeah i definately did the most important one and i feel no different. i finally did what i have been dying to for the past 4 years. it was well worth it though. the other 4 things on my list can be easily completed and shit. just gotta actually do them. one of the hardest ones will be letting my celica go...that car is my baby. i dont wanna let it go but i have to. and then with chrissy...i mean yeah i miss her and shit. but the last few days shes hanging out with everyone and she seems really happy. so i dont know what to think anymore. well im off to do push ups and think the night away.