Hm.

Aug 10, 2004 12:43

Here's an actual entry :P

I haven't been in a very good place lately. My father has been in the hospital for a month now. I've lost one of my best friends (not to death, but to the law) and I can't seem to stop lying to him. My brother and his wife are splitting up, and my brother likes to hide from her where I live, telling me to lie to her if she calls, and tell her I haven't seen her. My grandmother has moved out. I've had little human contact over the past month (no way to get out and around, y'know?). And through all of this, I kept trying to keep my world up. It didn't work. So last night, I just kinda...well, I suppose I 'broke'. The world I had tried to keep up didn't exist anymore, and it let me know by shattering around me. I don't think I'll really be the same anymore...*smiles a bit* But..I'm really grateful, and lucky, to have some online friends who caught me when I fell. I've got to fight my demons by myself, but it's good to know there's people like Richard and Jem there to help me when I'm down. *wipes away a tear, and waves* Love you guys.

I think I'm gonna draw some...*goes off to hunt for her sketchpad*

friends love, family troubles, depression

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