where am I?
i've watched my life spin in and out of control. fall down... get up... walk.... fall down.... walk... get up.... its a never ending cycle of this and that and the other. i do the same thing everyday. i just don't know where i am in life. am i even going anywhere?
most days i have to numb myself. whenever i'm at work or driving or hanging out with anyone i have to numb myself and think only of the same mundane shit. then, finally, when i lay in bed alone i can think of everything that is bothering me. put on the mask for everyone else and maybe a little bit for myself all so i don't end up where i've been.
I WILL NOT GO BACK!!!
most days i have to numb myself. whenever i'm at work or driving or hanging out with anyone i have to numb myself and think only of the same mundane shit. then, finally, when i lay in bed alone i can think of everything that is bothering me. put on the mask for everyone else and maybe a little bit for myself all so i don't end up where i've been.
I WILL NOT GO BACK!!!