Depression

[roguemarvel]

Jared and I are both depressed right now. Well I think he is more just upset, burned out and frustrated about the job search but his attitude is making me depressed. Its really not anyone fault but I'm having trouble dealing with it. The past few days I feel foggy and distant at work and I want to cry all the time when I'm home if jared even gets

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[pyroweasel]

Of course everything will get better, even if you guys end up in another state. Tho it is my fondest wish that you guys end up back here of course.

I think I have talked to you and Jared and it sounds like he does, or at least has until recently, have designated amounts of time to apply for jobs and to have fun and do things he enjoys. I wouldn't be surprised if that's fallen a little by the wayside lately, so that's important to get back at least a little bit.

A couple of weeks ago, before I had officially decided to look for a new job I was actually feeling kind of crummy on my weekends. Victor was working on projects and I was goofing off. Goofing off is only really good for a few hours a day. It just did not feel good to do the entire day. I felt like I was wasting my time in a bad way rather than a deliberate fun way. These past few weekends when I had stuff I was supposed to do I did feel bad about myself for not getting stuff done, but I was a little bit more deliberate in what I chose to spend my time on. I played a game that felt like more of an accomplishment than the time wasting I'd done previously. I also decided to randomly bake something. I also started working on trying to finish a sewing project a few weekends ago, and that made me enjoy the time better too. So what I'm trying to say is that sometimes even the things you think of as what you do to relax aren't gonna work and you gotta switch up what you do.

I've also noticed I enjoy our weekends a lot more when we actually get out of the apartment. I forgot how much I miss walking around the mall, but I even like just going to Target with Victor and taking longer than necessary (he doesn't enjoy the taking longer as much as I do admittedly), sometimes it's just nice to be out.

Based off my extensive experience in depression, I'd have to say that stagnation makes everything worse. I hope you can find some way to switch it up a little bit. It will get better eventually, but I think switching it up will help it get better sooner. And you guys are great together, so that helps too.