life and it hates
One would think all is well when you have someone to love. Love of life i much different. I miss the simplicity my professions once offered me; which are no longer there. Both jobs have progressed toward improvements I appreciate, yet I am set aside and dismissed despite my seniority in both jobs. Constantly I have been undermined by certain colleagues and refused equality though I have more years of relevant experience. It is no wonder I have burst out to my coworkers and superiors in vulgar ways. Frustration. Anger. Being ignored. I can make the job work better than they or at least learn to function with their alternative methods, but because I am young, and a new face, I have no say!?
In restaurant work, I was never a server, it was a side to my job, but with the new chef, he can see me as nothing else, and refuses to acknowledge me in any sort of way than his slave. AS HOLE!!!
In the race production. Dumb Jeff, constantly directs the obvious in a very condescending method of sub- communication. I told him to cool off, and my friend at work tried to explain that the guys are always PMS'ing in the control room and I just need to learn to placate them.
WHY SHOULD I!
Maybe if I was payed what I deserve. It is not even the minimum for this industry!
Sterling tells me to grow some balls and stand up for what I deserve. I have tried. But I am too close to both my jobs. I can't tell any of them I will walk if I don't get the pay I deserve after so many years of devotion, and I can't explain likewise why I have been slacking and hating because I am neglected.
For the longest time, I did not mind I was being payed less than I should be, but now, with the manure piled on of disrespect and sexist asshole behavior, I just can't take it anymore.
I feel like a woman in an abusive relationship who excuses her husband beating her. I stay, because I am needed, and they care about me. Even though I am not getting what I need or deserve. I can't leave. Where would I go. I am useless.
I hate this.
I used to be so much more, working for shitty Com/Direct, and lead G O at RCR. Now, What. I was even head waitress at the Imperial. I made a difference. Set up a system they still work off of. But, to this date, I put more of my blood into something which pays out only in fatigue and disappointment. I NEEEED MORE!!! If I was being payed more, I could put up with the dumb ass asshole chef "rocking the boat"
but I am not.
I can deal with less pay for my work, as long as I get the respect and authority I have earned. But no one has the guts to tell this asshole. I'm sick of these controlling sexist men compromising what I have built. No one else agrees with them, but they are good at their job, so no one will stand up for me. The moment I do, I am tared down, and everyone around me is too afraid to stand up to support me even though they agree with me first.
Fuck You S@&! Lynn for bringing him in. And Fuck you Hr for bringing that prick asshole in. Ruined your marriage and you still stand up for him....
Just let me have my work in peace dammit!!!
In restaurant work, I was never a server, it was a side to my job, but with the new chef, he can see me as nothing else, and refuses to acknowledge me in any sort of way than his slave. AS HOLE!!!
In the race production. Dumb Jeff, constantly directs the obvious in a very condescending method of sub- communication. I told him to cool off, and my friend at work tried to explain that the guys are always PMS'ing in the control room and I just need to learn to placate them.
WHY SHOULD I!
Maybe if I was payed what I deserve. It is not even the minimum for this industry!
Sterling tells me to grow some balls and stand up for what I deserve. I have tried. But I am too close to both my jobs. I can't tell any of them I will walk if I don't get the pay I deserve after so many years of devotion, and I can't explain likewise why I have been slacking and hating because I am neglected.
For the longest time, I did not mind I was being payed less than I should be, but now, with the manure piled on of disrespect and sexist asshole behavior, I just can't take it anymore.
I feel like a woman in an abusive relationship who excuses her husband beating her. I stay, because I am needed, and they care about me. Even though I am not getting what I need or deserve. I can't leave. Where would I go. I am useless.
I hate this.
I used to be so much more, working for shitty Com/Direct, and lead G O at RCR. Now, What. I was even head waitress at the Imperial. I made a difference. Set up a system they still work off of. But, to this date, I put more of my blood into something which pays out only in fatigue and disappointment. I NEEEED MORE!!! If I was being payed more, I could put up with the dumb ass asshole chef "rocking the boat"
but I am not.
I can deal with less pay for my work, as long as I get the respect and authority I have earned. But no one has the guts to tell this asshole. I'm sick of these controlling sexist men compromising what I have built. No one else agrees with them, but they are good at their job, so no one will stand up for me. The moment I do, I am tared down, and everyone around me is too afraid to stand up to support me even though they agree with me first.
Fuck You S@&! Lynn for bringing him in. And Fuck you Hr for bringing that prick asshole in. Ruined your marriage and you still stand up for him....
Just let me have my work in peace dammit!!!