I want to be a good person
So I am at the library AGAIN because of the retardo internet.
I came here because I have to work on stuff for my first passive that is due when I get back to school.
Ummmm hmmmm so I guess I updated yesterday. And well I feel so much better about things. I was just doubting myself...in a case where doubt does not belong. But see the thing with my feelings is that I have real ones and then I have fake ones I have come to realize. And sometimes I can't tell what is real and what is fake and I will act on them, and they will be fake and that's why I regret it. I know that sounds so dumb and stuff...but its true. And in 19 years I am just now becoming able to distinguish between the 2. Anyways, I love him. I love him more everyday.
Last night was fun. We played some PAPERBOY and 720...only two of the best original video games EVER. Then we went to church. The mass was about vanity. It made me think a lot. Why do we need such material possesions? I don't know. Lately, I haven't found the need for all of my "stuff." To me, there is no point. But what if everyone realized this. What if everyone instead of spending their money on a pair of shoes they don't need, or a necklace, they gave their money to people who really need it. The world would be a better place. And instead of televisions, or movies, or even computers...people spent their free time reflecting on themselves, learning new things, getting to know people better, spending time with loved ones, or even working. I think that would be awesome. I know when I have kids I am not going to let them watch T.V. or play on a computer. They can read books, they can do projects with me, they can spend time with people, they can use their imagination. Last night actually it was kinda funny. We came back to my house at around 11ish and I had to fold my laundry so Mario turned on the T.V. He turned it onto the Evangilist (?) commercial...you know Channel 14 or whatever. They were doing the whole thing where the minister would hit them on the forehead and the "demons" would be gone. It was a very amusing, and sad spectacle to watch. Anyways, afterwards they would talk to the people and they would all say the same thing. "The Lord has given me so much money, and healed me." That is what EVERYONE said. But it was like...is that what God is there for? To give you money? To heal you? Why do you deserve any of that? It was just kinda like...why do you need more money? Is this why you pray to God? For you own selfish reasons? It was just that these people were doing all of this in vain...on the Evangilist commercial. Does anyone else see the irony?
I got a picture of Mars when he was little. Oh my goodness...he was ADORABLE. I am going to have to scan it on my computer or something so I can put it in here. Haha. I also got his old drivers license. His hair was to his shoulders...and man it was hot. Haha...oh man.
Today at work it was good. This is my last week...and I know I am going to miss it but I am ready for it to be over.
Hey Sarah and Kelly...what are you doing Wednesday around 11ish-12ish? Do you want to meet me for lunch at Willie's? I have an hour off for lunch that day bc of Counselor of the Week...and I would like to eat with you guys...if you wanna.
So I guess I should work on my passive.
Everyday there is something that I learn...
I came here because I have to work on stuff for my first passive that is due when I get back to school.
Ummmm hmmmm so I guess I updated yesterday. And well I feel so much better about things. I was just doubting myself...in a case where doubt does not belong. But see the thing with my feelings is that I have real ones and then I have fake ones I have come to realize. And sometimes I can't tell what is real and what is fake and I will act on them, and they will be fake and that's why I regret it. I know that sounds so dumb and stuff...but its true. And in 19 years I am just now becoming able to distinguish between the 2. Anyways, I love him. I love him more everyday.
Last night was fun. We played some PAPERBOY and 720...only two of the best original video games EVER. Then we went to church. The mass was about vanity. It made me think a lot. Why do we need such material possesions? I don't know. Lately, I haven't found the need for all of my "stuff." To me, there is no point. But what if everyone realized this. What if everyone instead of spending their money on a pair of shoes they don't need, or a necklace, they gave their money to people who really need it. The world would be a better place. And instead of televisions, or movies, or even computers...people spent their free time reflecting on themselves, learning new things, getting to know people better, spending time with loved ones, or even working. I think that would be awesome. I know when I have kids I am not going to let them watch T.V. or play on a computer. They can read books, they can do projects with me, they can spend time with people, they can use their imagination. Last night actually it was kinda funny. We came back to my house at around 11ish and I had to fold my laundry so Mario turned on the T.V. He turned it onto the Evangilist (?) commercial...you know Channel 14 or whatever. They were doing the whole thing where the minister would hit them on the forehead and the "demons" would be gone. It was a very amusing, and sad spectacle to watch. Anyways, afterwards they would talk to the people and they would all say the same thing. "The Lord has given me so much money, and healed me." That is what EVERYONE said. But it was like...is that what God is there for? To give you money? To heal you? Why do you deserve any of that? It was just kinda like...why do you need more money? Is this why you pray to God? For you own selfish reasons? It was just that these people were doing all of this in vain...on the Evangilist commercial. Does anyone else see the irony?
I got a picture of Mars when he was little. Oh my goodness...he was ADORABLE. I am going to have to scan it on my computer or something so I can put it in here. Haha. I also got his old drivers license. His hair was to his shoulders...and man it was hot. Haha...oh man.
Today at work it was good. This is my last week...and I know I am going to miss it but I am ready for it to be over.
Hey Sarah and Kelly...what are you doing Wednesday around 11ish-12ish? Do you want to meet me for lunch at Willie's? I have an hour off for lunch that day bc of Counselor of the Week...and I would like to eat with you guys...if you wanna.
So I guess I should work on my passive.
Everyday there is something that I learn...