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as upset as i was sunday when i wrote my last entry about my aunt, it doesn't even compare to the last two days. the viewing and the funeral made it all real to me. I've lost all of my grandparents, and as hard as that was, it doesn't even compare to the loss i'm feeling right now. aunt di wasn't just an aunt, she was my best friend all throyghout my childhood. little things everywhere keep reminding me of her. i keep remembeing fond memories that i had long forgotten. The hardest part of it all was being in her house yesterday, seeing all of her things, and expecting her to call out "5 minutes tilllllll diiinnnerrrr" from the kitchen like she did every tuesday when i was younger. I can't imagine how rose, who was with her for 26 years must feel living there.
When I was really young, about 6 years old, my favorite movie was the lion king. aunt di had the soundtrack and I always loved the song "circle of life" and her and i would ride in her car singing(poorly) the words to the song. I had forgotten about that song over time, but for whatever reason it just popped into my head, and this time with a whole new meaning. and again today a song that i had forgotten about randomly popped into my head. Aunt di was a big fan of bob marley, as was I at a really young age. one of her favorite songs, Three little birds, came to me today as i was driving. It wasn't so much that the song came to me that got me, but the lyrics and how appropriate they are:
Don't worry about a thing
cause every little thing is gonna be alright
don't worry about a thing
every little thing is gonna be alright
Rise up this morning
smiled with the rising sun
three little birds
pitch by my door step
singing sweet songs
of melodies pure and true
saying, this is my message to you
I'm not the most spritual person, but i can't help but think this was aunt di's message to me. and the three little birds part? well aunt di was always close to her parents, and though she was devasted when they died, always knew that one day she'd see them again. so perhaps granny, pap pap, and her are those three little birds telling me not to worry and everything IS going to be alright.
When I was really young, about 6 years old, my favorite movie was the lion king. aunt di had the soundtrack and I always loved the song "circle of life" and her and i would ride in her car singing(poorly) the words to the song. I had forgotten about that song over time, but for whatever reason it just popped into my head, and this time with a whole new meaning. and again today a song that i had forgotten about randomly popped into my head. Aunt di was a big fan of bob marley, as was I at a really young age. one of her favorite songs, Three little birds, came to me today as i was driving. It wasn't so much that the song came to me that got me, but the lyrics and how appropriate they are:
Don't worry about a thing
cause every little thing is gonna be alright
don't worry about a thing
every little thing is gonna be alright
Rise up this morning
smiled with the rising sun
three little birds
pitch by my door step
singing sweet songs
of melodies pure and true
saying, this is my message to you
I'm not the most spritual person, but i can't help but think this was aunt di's message to me. and the three little birds part? well aunt di was always close to her parents, and though she was devasted when they died, always knew that one day she'd see them again. so perhaps granny, pap pap, and her are those three little birds telling me not to worry and everything IS going to be alright.