As the dust settles
It's a good life now, friends are back, I'm more social again, even without Molly I'm doing alright. I still miss her, I mean I can't stop that, but at least we talked and had a great conversation. One I didn't think would be possible, becuase of the awkwardness of being broken up and not knowing what it's like to be only friends. I was wrong. She made good decisions, and even the one to break up with me was the right decision to make. I was getting a bit out of control, a little too attached to her.. so much so that she felt as if she controlled all my moods and my nights and days.. which was beginning to come true. She didn't have any other choices and she did what she had to do. Again, it's a hard decision, and it came with a lot of stress in itself, but at the same time, I feel like I'm beginning to return to earth to become a more independant person. I just need to make some changes in my own lifestyle to reduce my dependancy on other people. I need to find some other ways of spending my time and energy.. something I have been doing more of lately. Maybe many babysteps later, I'll be ready for anything... or almost anything.