"another broken heart that i can do without..."

[rocknrollkid]

Maybe its because I need sleep or the fact that I had an experience tonight, but I have never been more bitter in my life. Seriously, I don't know what is wrong with me. My heart just feels cold, and I'm tired of being so angry about things. I would have thought things would be different(this bitterness focused on a person) after all, it was nothing special. However, if it was not rubbed in my face, I would probably be better off. Though, I'm happy for her...in a sense, but my heart can't be there just yet, its gonna take some time for this one. Yet, this is not a fresh feeling to me, I have felt this way many times, but not like this though, something is different. I can't wait for all this to be over once and for all (this feeling). Sometimes, it builds me up though, it makes me want to be a "better person" somehow. I just hope this time I'll learn, and that I'll remember this, and what it feels like because it flat out sucks. I don't think I would wish this upon anybody. I need to shape up...life is too short for this.

"forget this thing called love, it's a waste of time girls ain't no good anymore, anyway!"

Real update coming soon...for now its off to vent.