Up'sn'downs
I'm pleased to announce that things are finally improving.
After what seems like an age of angst, tears, that horrible tense feeling you get in your stomach when you're about to throw up and probably a few too many shots of firewhiskey (to help all concerned 'cope') - things are finally - yes, finally looking up.
Way, way up, actually.
I guess I didn't 'update' about it before - it was too painful to even contemplate doing so. Too frightening. If I had, I don't know what I would have done - had to face it properly, I guess - immortalise it in black and white forever and ever, to look back on - all those raw, horrible, sick feelings, which i'd rather bury and forget about.
But I suppose I can say it now...
...wait, no. No. I'll leave it. Leave it for somebody else to say.
It'll suffice to tell you that things are working out - Tale, Pax and I went to this muggle councelling place - with this chick (quite young, really) called 'Dr Shubb'. Weird woman (and totally annoying when we had to pretend to be muggles the entire time we were there, change our names, etc) - but very good! She got stuff out of us that I didn't think it was going to be possible to extract; real feelings. Real regret. Real remorse.
I'm happy now, I think. I'm with the woman I love, and we're getting married! I have my best friend back...all be it tentatively, for the time being...
Who knows? Maybe soon, i'll even start making music again...
Yours in hope and very much in love
~Lufi
Yo. yeah, this is Pax.
Right, I guess I should say it. It'll help if I say it. It'll get it all out. Start over. Clean slate. Something like that.
I tried to rape Absint-...Tale...Tale Absinthe. Awhile ago...fuck, I don't know how long. I mangled my leg...haha. It's healed now. I guess I deserved it. I was high at the time. As a fuckin' kite. So much for staying sober, right? So much for that.
But i've learnt, now. I've learnt the hard way. I've never regretted anything more in my life than what I did to Tale...and to Lufi.
So yeah like he said. Councelling. It was surprisingly good. Productive, you know? I didn't expect that.
Again, like wise old Loof said - things are looking up. I'm hoping I can move on from this - hoping everyone'll let me, although I expect there to be a bit of an outcry, now i've gone and made it public...
Oh well.
Again, I deserve that.
I've been forgiven by the people that matter.
And whilst I know that doesn't mean I 'get away' with anything, it means the world to me.
~P@x
After what seems like an age of angst, tears, that horrible tense feeling you get in your stomach when you're about to throw up and probably a few too many shots of firewhiskey (to help all concerned 'cope') - things are finally - yes, finally looking up.
Way, way up, actually.
I guess I didn't 'update' about it before - it was too painful to even contemplate doing so. Too frightening. If I had, I don't know what I would have done - had to face it properly, I guess - immortalise it in black and white forever and ever, to look back on - all those raw, horrible, sick feelings, which i'd rather bury and forget about.
But I suppose I can say it now...
...wait, no. No. I'll leave it. Leave it for somebody else to say.
It'll suffice to tell you that things are working out - Tale, Pax and I went to this muggle councelling place - with this chick (quite young, really) called 'Dr Shubb'. Weird woman (and totally annoying when we had to pretend to be muggles the entire time we were there, change our names, etc) - but very good! She got stuff out of us that I didn't think it was going to be possible to extract; real feelings. Real regret. Real remorse.
I'm happy now, I think. I'm with the woman I love, and we're getting married! I have my best friend back...all be it tentatively, for the time being...
Who knows? Maybe soon, i'll even start making music again...
Yours in hope and very much in love
~Lufi
Yo. yeah, this is Pax.
Right, I guess I should say it. It'll help if I say it. It'll get it all out. Start over. Clean slate. Something like that.
I tried to rape Absint-...Tale...Tale Absinthe. Awhile ago...fuck, I don't know how long. I mangled my leg...haha. It's healed now. I guess I deserved it. I was high at the time. As a fuckin' kite. So much for staying sober, right? So much for that.
But i've learnt, now. I've learnt the hard way. I've never regretted anything more in my life than what I did to Tale...and to Lufi.
So yeah like he said. Councelling. It was surprisingly good. Productive, you know? I didn't expect that.
Again, like wise old Loof said - things are looking up. I'm hoping I can move on from this - hoping everyone'll let me, although I expect there to be a bit of an outcry, now i've gone and made it public...
Oh well.
Again, I deserve that.
I've been forgiven by the people that matter.
And whilst I know that doesn't mean I 'get away' with anything, it means the world to me.
~P@x