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I had to do some very difficult things today, since tomorrow I leave for Alaska. First was saying goodbye to my grandmother, Mimi as I call her. I went to see her in Hackettstown today, knowing fully well it was likely the very last time I'd see her alive. She knew it too and her goodbye was worded "I'm glad I got to see you again." her goodbye was a final one.
Then I saw my friend Amanda. We met at Panera Bread only briefly to quickly catch up and say goodbye. It was good to see her again and I'm glad I was able to.
Finally was saying goodbye to my father. I would have thought that out of all the goodbyes, saying goodbye to him would have been the least difficult. It was really hard. He gave me a tight, long hug and started crying. I have never seen my father cry. And now I can't stop crying too. He rarely shows his emotions openly, but I've always known he's proud of me and loves me. Even if he doesn't say it I know he is. So tonight was really emotional. It took me by complete and utter surprise... Took my mother by surprise too. I love him dearly, and always will.
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