I'm Back
What a crazy month... Well I will start from the beginning... I am in an apartment now. Livin it and lovin it. My roomate kicks ass and so does Pedro, our little bundle of joy. Back to Scool ended last week and boy was I happy. Journey's was a fuckin zoo. I am sick right now, but still functional. Classes start on Monday, dear lord wish me luck. LOL... Hmmm... I am such a god damn sappy ass. I think I am gonna get a tattoo that says open for heartbreak. Something emo... because I still am alone... still confused with certain people... and dissapointed in one person. I just wanna be loved... but nothing to serious. LOL... jeeze... What opposites. Hmmm... I need to find mister right. HA! I am almost positive it doesn't exist. I don't want to be with him right now... but I want to meet him and start our journey towards something grand. At the same time however fuck that. Right now isn't the best time for me to type about boys cause I am a little upset about something dealing with one. I love to get played for a fool. Or maybe that's what the world thinks. I deserve a good guy. I deserve some respect. I just want to be held right now, to be quite honest... By someone who I know just doesn't want a piece. I am destined to be alone I think. I dunno.. what a blur this has all been for me. I don't know how to date. I just know how to be a girlfriend. I dunno how this shit works. I'm fucking clueless. I dunno how to read boys. I dunno how to tell the boys apart from the real men. I am fucked, huh? I don't know... Maybe details will come later... not now though... Do da do... Goodnight and stuff... I turn 21 SEPTEMBER 11th! I can play with the big kids now. Heh... Eh, ya know. Whateva... Not much will change.