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[rockhopper22]

I am beginning to see that many of the theories I’ve wildly hypothesized to myself over the past months - those which I have nearly come to live by, to wake up to each morning and fall asleep with each night - those that all my other goals and passions orbit around, ideas whose truth I would pursue even if just to discover in the end their calling was an empty phantom - do not align well with modern science. I don't know if they can survive a college science major. And I worry for them the way one would worry for one’s children going off to kindergarten at the elementary school. Will they be able to develop in their own way still - will they keep the beautiful things about them that they don’t realize are beautiful and unique to them - or will they allow other children’s differences to torment them and mold them into someone that they themselves intimately hate? Will they pass or fail and will they define themselves on those achievements? Will they love the life we have created for them or will they hate it and will they blame us and hate us for buying into it? And, so, I’m beginning to wonder if science is the type of brick that can withhold my step when laid upon the path of my destiny. Of course, I have to learn it. Of course, it is essential. But there are words that have been published recently which I all too readily identify with - words that could be a deadly blow to my relationship with science - and they are that science is becoming stagnant, for now that many know all there is to know about science we are becoming stuck in fact and innovation is being limited. I don’t know if this is true and I don’t know for how long it will remain once this assertion is examined, if it is. I just hope there is still room for me.

Can you really ever clean yourself fully? I wonder if that is what beauty is - an clean face washed atop the body of uncontaminated genetic information. Can you get clean if you didn't start that way - how clean can one be, and how clean can one appear to be?