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this is the hardest thing i've ever had to do in my life. i want to write so much but i don't know what to write. all i can think of saying is how much i love you and how much i wish you didn't need to do this but that i do understand. you really are the girl of my dreams and i just don't want you to ever leave me. i don't even feel like i exist anymore. i've never cried so much in my life. why does everything remind me of you? why can't this be easier? why am i so emotional all of the time?
i wish i could hate you for this but you don't deserve an ounce of hate from anyone. especially from me. god i just hope everything works out. i know that one way or another everything will, but i just want you back so badly. you really are my best friend here and even if we don't stay together i never want to lose that, but it's so hard to just be friendly for now, as much as i would like to try to. i love talking and hanging out with you, but it's so hard to get used to it just as friends.
i really don't want to make any of this public but it feels so much better to write it down. i think i'm gonna start a paper journal, i've always meant to.
i feel so broke up, i wanna go home.
i want you to come back home.
i wish i could hate you for this but you don't deserve an ounce of hate from anyone. especially from me. god i just hope everything works out. i know that one way or another everything will, but i just want you back so badly. you really are my best friend here and even if we don't stay together i never want to lose that, but it's so hard to just be friendly for now, as much as i would like to try to. i love talking and hanging out with you, but it's so hard to get used to it just as friends.
i really don't want to make any of this public but it feels so much better to write it down. i think i'm gonna start a paper journal, i've always meant to.
i feel so broke up, i wanna go home.
i want you to come back home.