Another shitty day...
I think this really has been the worst week of my life ever. Good in terms with my friends and seeing different people along with rocking out at summerfest, but bad in terms of the past and parental wise. Plus, if matters couldn't possibly get worse... I lost my sheet with my pin for IB and haven't slept in fucking forever....
So yesterday was the 3 days grace concert... wasn't really feeling them that much. Summerfest however did fucking rock this year with these bands that I got to see...
OK GO
Liz Phair
The Darkness
Seether w/ Amy Lee from Evanessance
Chevelle
Smile Empty Soul
Blink 182
Something Corporate
Drowning Pool
Better Than Ezra
The Response
The Used
311
The Roots
3 Days Grace
Fuel
... some extremely good and others not so good. Anyway, so we are coming home from Summerfest last night and as we get to julie's house we decide to go out to wind lake yet again with frank, the marks, john, terry, tommy, nick, and about a million other people. Like usual it was a blast and I ended up not getting any sleep. Julie was drunk again and about 30 minutes after we got there laura passed out in my car. The best part of the whole night award is given to mark who passed out on the porch and let us draw all over him with permenant marker. Me and julie just wrote on his arms and stuff but them other people came in and drew all over his face and everything.. more great pictures for my book. The best part was that mark was up and awake through the whole thing. Maybe he's just dumb... I also got to see mark storma who i havent seen in at least a year, maybe a little less. Hasn't changed at all.... So, it's now about 5 in the morning out at the lake and I still can't sleep so me and frank go for a walk and talk about everything. I get about 1 hour of sleep and then drive home only to have my mother start bitching at me to go watch the parade with her and my grandparents. Yeah.. it sucked. And then I had to come home and help her cook and do random shit. So I still haven't slept yet. And to make matters worse, my family is coming up from California tomorrow at 5:45am, which means I again won't get sleep because I am not tired....
This last week has been good for friendships though... me and jacob have been kickin it a lot lately and now I remember that my whole heart goes to him. Without him I probably wouldn't be here right now.. I owe you so much Jacob... thank you. Me and Julie also had a really serious conversation the other day which was awesome. Me and Lewis are on better terms again but mainly because its been 3 years now since Charlie passed away. It will be three years tomorrow. R.I.P. kid, there isnt a day that goes by when I dont look up to the sky and wish you were still here with me. I cant wait to see you again. I miss you. And lewis, we'll make it through this... i promise. Don't give up yet, I can't afford another heartache and lost friend.
Me and my parents are on shit level again. I think I'm moving out on wednesday unless shit stops hitting the fan. This fan must be like a super fan because so much shit has already hit it and it just keeps fucking going. I just wish things would someday get better... that they would actually accept me for who I am and who I became. Sorry I turned out so bad...
I think I am going to get another tattoo this week since I have the money for it. My drawings have to come in use for something. I want my lip pierced exceptionably bad... but I'm just asking for it. I have realized, with the help from jacob, that even though the things that happen in my house aren't justifiable or right, the majority of the times I ask for it... I need to know when to keep my mouth shut and I dont... but that only applies with my family, all you others who I can't fucking stand, you probably deserve what I said in the end. Fuck you.
This goes out to my bestest bud leah who is so cool I have no idea why she hangs out with me...lol. I love you. And clark, I'm sorry I can't do anything but my family comes first... no matter how much I fucking hate them sometimes. Sarah.. I love you and you fucking rock! (yes, there is a friendship here... so watch it). To everyone else I saw at summerfest, yeah, some of you are cool too. lol. j/k (in some cases). alright, I think I'm done for the night...
Haha, nope! I forgot to tell you guys that I got my housing shit in the mail a couple days ago. The girl who I've been talking to is my roommate which is going to kick ass. I am in Frontier hall which is on the party block on the first fucking floor. If you want the address and phone number where I can be reached after Sept. 8th just let me know. Oh, and if anybody is interested in going to the lost prophets concert with me on August 1st, let me know. And... lol, you should all go support my guy josh and chad's band who is opening up for kittie this thursday at 7:30pm at the Rave. They are called Shallow Ground and they fucking rock... especially if you like drowning pool, slipknot and mudvayne (because their band is so fucking better).
Good luck with your IB scores and have a good night.
So yesterday was the 3 days grace concert... wasn't really feeling them that much. Summerfest however did fucking rock this year with these bands that I got to see...
OK GO
Liz Phair
The Darkness
Seether w/ Amy Lee from Evanessance
Chevelle
Smile Empty Soul
Blink 182
Something Corporate
Drowning Pool
Better Than Ezra
The Response
The Used
311
The Roots
3 Days Grace
Fuel
... some extremely good and others not so good. Anyway, so we are coming home from Summerfest last night and as we get to julie's house we decide to go out to wind lake yet again with frank, the marks, john, terry, tommy, nick, and about a million other people. Like usual it was a blast and I ended up not getting any sleep. Julie was drunk again and about 30 minutes after we got there laura passed out in my car. The best part of the whole night award is given to mark who passed out on the porch and let us draw all over him with permenant marker. Me and julie just wrote on his arms and stuff but them other people came in and drew all over his face and everything.. more great pictures for my book. The best part was that mark was up and awake through the whole thing. Maybe he's just dumb... I also got to see mark storma who i havent seen in at least a year, maybe a little less. Hasn't changed at all.... So, it's now about 5 in the morning out at the lake and I still can't sleep so me and frank go for a walk and talk about everything. I get about 1 hour of sleep and then drive home only to have my mother start bitching at me to go watch the parade with her and my grandparents. Yeah.. it sucked. And then I had to come home and help her cook and do random shit. So I still haven't slept yet. And to make matters worse, my family is coming up from California tomorrow at 5:45am, which means I again won't get sleep because I am not tired....
This last week has been good for friendships though... me and jacob have been kickin it a lot lately and now I remember that my whole heart goes to him. Without him I probably wouldn't be here right now.. I owe you so much Jacob... thank you. Me and Julie also had a really serious conversation the other day which was awesome. Me and Lewis are on better terms again but mainly because its been 3 years now since Charlie passed away. It will be three years tomorrow. R.I.P. kid, there isnt a day that goes by when I dont look up to the sky and wish you were still here with me. I cant wait to see you again. I miss you. And lewis, we'll make it through this... i promise. Don't give up yet, I can't afford another heartache and lost friend.
Me and my parents are on shit level again. I think I'm moving out on wednesday unless shit stops hitting the fan. This fan must be like a super fan because so much shit has already hit it and it just keeps fucking going. I just wish things would someday get better... that they would actually accept me for who I am and who I became. Sorry I turned out so bad...
I think I am going to get another tattoo this week since I have the money for it. My drawings have to come in use for something. I want my lip pierced exceptionably bad... but I'm just asking for it. I have realized, with the help from jacob, that even though the things that happen in my house aren't justifiable or right, the majority of the times I ask for it... I need to know when to keep my mouth shut and I dont... but that only applies with my family, all you others who I can't fucking stand, you probably deserve what I said in the end. Fuck you.
This goes out to my bestest bud leah who is so cool I have no idea why she hangs out with me...lol. I love you. And clark, I'm sorry I can't do anything but my family comes first... no matter how much I fucking hate them sometimes. Sarah.. I love you and you fucking rock! (yes, there is a friendship here... so watch it). To everyone else I saw at summerfest, yeah, some of you are cool too. lol. j/k (in some cases). alright, I think I'm done for the night...
Haha, nope! I forgot to tell you guys that I got my housing shit in the mail a couple days ago. The girl who I've been talking to is my roommate which is going to kick ass. I am in Frontier hall which is on the party block on the first fucking floor. If you want the address and phone number where I can be reached after Sept. 8th just let me know. Oh, and if anybody is interested in going to the lost prophets concert with me on August 1st, let me know. And... lol, you should all go support my guy josh and chad's band who is opening up for kittie this thursday at 7:30pm at the Rave. They are called Shallow Ground and they fucking rock... especially if you like drowning pool, slipknot and mudvayne (because their band is so fucking better).
Good luck with your IB scores and have a good night.