boring weekend
i got water stuck in my ear going swimming friday night. i'm so glad it came out by this morning. i thought i was going to go insane hearing it everytime i moved my head.
don't you just love it when you put a lot of time into something and its brushed off entirely. i sit for a good while thinking of how to word things and what points i'd like to make just have the person not even give me the time of day to read it. that like a prof not reading a paper you wrote or a homework you did b/c you always do B- work all the time anyway. it really irks me. grrr. whatever. i was told if i had issues to go directly to said person, but apparently doing that just made my efforts even more pointless. hopefully this crap is over for good, meaning forever and not just for a few weeks or months this time.
john and i are on slightly rough times because i found out that he lied to me . . . AGAIN. i almost broke up with him thrusday morning. i know i've said things like this before but really this is the last straw. i makes me sick to my stomach that he could care so little about me that he can't even tell me the truth about things. even when he's begging me to get back together with him he's being a weasel behind my back. i know the accusations that he's cheated on every gf he had are false. at least they'd better be. he told me he never did with amanda nor steff. he didn't techniqually cheat on me either, he just likes to be sneaky about things behind my back. i do wonder if i should have even agreed to get back together with him. was i just really in need of someone at the time b/c of my situation? i mean i do love him, but he breaks my heart constantly. "make me cry once, shame on you. make me cry twice, shame on me". and this is more than twice. so we'll see how things go. he wants to take me to NY City in march for mine and ron's bdays (his bestfriend and i have the same birthday, wierd isn't it).
well hopefully he'll quit with his immature crap, and start telling me the truth for once. we'll see how it goes.
don't you just love it when you put a lot of time into something and its brushed off entirely. i sit for a good while thinking of how to word things and what points i'd like to make just have the person not even give me the time of day to read it. that like a prof not reading a paper you wrote or a homework you did b/c you always do B- work all the time anyway. it really irks me. grrr. whatever. i was told if i had issues to go directly to said person, but apparently doing that just made my efforts even more pointless. hopefully this crap is over for good, meaning forever and not just for a few weeks or months this time.
john and i are on slightly rough times because i found out that he lied to me . . . AGAIN. i almost broke up with him thrusday morning. i know i've said things like this before but really this is the last straw. i makes me sick to my stomach that he could care so little about me that he can't even tell me the truth about things. even when he's begging me to get back together with him he's being a weasel behind my back. i know the accusations that he's cheated on every gf he had are false. at least they'd better be. he told me he never did with amanda nor steff. he didn't techniqually cheat on me either, he just likes to be sneaky about things behind my back. i do wonder if i should have even agreed to get back together with him. was i just really in need of someone at the time b/c of my situation? i mean i do love him, but he breaks my heart constantly. "make me cry once, shame on you. make me cry twice, shame on me". and this is more than twice. so we'll see how things go. he wants to take me to NY City in march for mine and ron's bdays (his bestfriend and i have the same birthday, wierd isn't it).
well hopefully he'll quit with his immature crap, and start telling me the truth for once. we'll see how it goes.