Update
I have cut certain people out of my life. This is for an ultimate purpose. My happiness. I am tired of dealing with people who use, and then abuse certain situations. I have better ways to spend my time then trying to please you. I have pushed out the people who have nothing better to do with their time then to gossip, and talk behind my back. High School ended Years ago guys. Why don't you try to live your own lives? Recently I have pushed Alex, and A.J. back. Alex is fun, but I do not feel like drinking all the time. A.J. i am not sure. He seems like he has to much on his plate right now, and I need space from peoples issues. He seems down, and he seems like he has changed. I mean I do not have room to talk I guess..
My two week depression has passed, and I feel like shit for starting stupid fights. I have rewound and reviewed the events in my head. The last few nights with Erika, where we have gone out have been amazing. I want her, and she wants me. None of her Ex boyfriends matter in this equation. I understand that. I also understand that I can not always make her happy. I also understand that she will not always open up to me. She is scared of opening up. She hates me feeling insecure. I am tired of feeling slightly useless during situations. So from now on I will be worry, and care free. I love her, and that is what matters. When she is more comfortable with her past I will be able to listen. When She wants me to make her happy I will be here. I am happy with you. So do not worry. I just am use to my girlfriends confiding in me.
Now for the fun stuff. I have had a great week. Between dressing up, and playing at the beach. Then their was the adventure with Erika to Lakewood where we ran into Rachael. That was an interesting situation. Anyway we went to Angelos got pizza, and then fought a rediculous storm. The their was last night when Donny, Sarah, Erika, and I quested for a buffet. When we arrived we ran into 300 kids, and fat albert. It was pretty fucking awesome. This weekend shoul be amazing also. Looking forward to it.
My two week depression has passed, and I feel like shit for starting stupid fights. I have rewound and reviewed the events in my head. The last few nights with Erika, where we have gone out have been amazing. I want her, and she wants me. None of her Ex boyfriends matter in this equation. I understand that. I also understand that I can not always make her happy. I also understand that she will not always open up to me. She is scared of opening up. She hates me feeling insecure. I am tired of feeling slightly useless during situations. So from now on I will be worry, and care free. I love her, and that is what matters. When she is more comfortable with her past I will be able to listen. When She wants me to make her happy I will be here. I am happy with you. So do not worry. I just am use to my girlfriends confiding in me.
Now for the fun stuff. I have had a great week. Between dressing up, and playing at the beach. Then their was the adventure with Erika to Lakewood where we ran into Rachael. That was an interesting situation. Anyway we went to Angelos got pizza, and then fought a rediculous storm. The their was last night when Donny, Sarah, Erika, and I quested for a buffet. When we arrived we ran into 300 kids, and fat albert. It was pretty fucking awesome. This weekend shoul be amazing also. Looking forward to it.