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Yeah..well...been thinkin about stuff.
I think maybe it's for the best that Jim and I stay away from each other. We had some great times together, but it just seems like that won't be able to happen again. Everytime we tried to fix it or talk to each other, we just ended up hurting each other. There's way too much going on in my head at the moment anyhow, I don't think it'd be a good idea to add that into the mix even more. I think I'm finally ready for a relationship though, and if the oppourtunity for one presents itself, I think I might just take it. Fuck knows when that's gonna happen, but if it does, i'm ready for it. I need to find someone thats better at the whole communicating game, because I learned that I do indeed suck at that game. There's just too much bullshit attatched to pretty much everyone, and I hate bullshit and drama. If I find someone that I think is worth it, then i'll do it, but, they better be pretty god damn great for it, lol.
My mother is psychotic. It's like she's screaming at me and all she ever does is point out how terrible i am, and her ways of reason are just not even followable anymore, there's no way for me to fight back except tell her i hate her and hope she drops dead, which causes her to cry, which i enjoy. I don't think anything gets accomplished like that though, unless she was stupid enough to kill herself which is, sadly, the best solution. It sounds cruel, but, that woman is just fucked up and she needs to either be locked away in a mental institution for the rest of her life, or die.
This whole christmas thing is just fucking stupid. Everything for everyone just seems to all go to hell around this time of year. It's really starting to bring me down, and i don't want to hear a single merry christmas from anyone. All I want for xmas is for it to be over.
Anyhow, i'm gonna go kill my mom.
I think maybe it's for the best that Jim and I stay away from each other. We had some great times together, but it just seems like that won't be able to happen again. Everytime we tried to fix it or talk to each other, we just ended up hurting each other. There's way too much going on in my head at the moment anyhow, I don't think it'd be a good idea to add that into the mix even more. I think I'm finally ready for a relationship though, and if the oppourtunity for one presents itself, I think I might just take it. Fuck knows when that's gonna happen, but if it does, i'm ready for it. I need to find someone thats better at the whole communicating game, because I learned that I do indeed suck at that game. There's just too much bullshit attatched to pretty much everyone, and I hate bullshit and drama. If I find someone that I think is worth it, then i'll do it, but, they better be pretty god damn great for it, lol.
My mother is psychotic. It's like she's screaming at me and all she ever does is point out how terrible i am, and her ways of reason are just not even followable anymore, there's no way for me to fight back except tell her i hate her and hope she drops dead, which causes her to cry, which i enjoy. I don't think anything gets accomplished like that though, unless she was stupid enough to kill herself which is, sadly, the best solution. It sounds cruel, but, that woman is just fucked up and she needs to either be locked away in a mental institution for the rest of her life, or die.
This whole christmas thing is just fucking stupid. Everything for everyone just seems to all go to hell around this time of year. It's really starting to bring me down, and i don't want to hear a single merry christmas from anyone. All I want for xmas is for it to be over.
Anyhow, i'm gonna go kill my mom.