hell as we know it
today i decided oregon people suck i took my friend to the hospital and while i was there i saw two fights and had at least ten people get mad at us cuase we didnt know how to find everything in the hospital on top of that i was cut off god knows how many times and almost hit. once again i plead my case that oregon is evil and a hellish place to live
on another hand im now completely single i had recently broken up with my gf not to long ago but we were still in that lets try to work it out stage and she decided the other day that she didnt wanna try anymore on top of that at work i was chewed out by my manager and two customers that fealt that it was my fault that there wernt more people working and that they had to wait for there food and that they were different from the ten people in line behind them i hate people... GOD I HATE PEOPLE
im also never allowed to have a friend over cuase my mother feels that he needs to get his life together being he has no job and does drugs and drinks and being that as of right now i have no other place to go i have no choice but to follow the rules man it rules almost being 20 and i can only see it getting even more fun.... once agian i hate people
on the good side of things i had a girl that liked me not to long ago i only met her for like 1 hour or 2 maybe how a person can like another person in that time confuses me unless its like just one of those things so im afraid of that but at the same time its pretty cool a little confidence boost after your gf just breaks up with ya..... man i hate people
i have also decided that even though i hacvnt been doing it that long i should quit smoking pot cuase its too god damn expensive and some friends i have and family dont agree with it so whatever no loss i guess and plus i would like to give my mother one light in the dark tunnel of her life being that one of her two sons just recently got out of jail and now isnt doing anything better with himself thanbefore he went into jail i dont know i feel i have to make up for what he does wrong we have never had a real good father figure around our dad left to early for us to remember and our step dad slapped us around alot..i hate people.. so i dont know i feel like i need to make up for all this pain and termoil cuased to my mom which doesnt really bother me to much just i dont know sometimes i wish the world could be perfect for a while really i wouldnt mind having a nice happy family that isnt broken up and perhaps a job i enjoy and make money at i mean i dont really even need the money maybe just a job i enjoy but that isnt the way the world works but im ok with that its just sometimes depressing to think back on
ive also decided that the world is truly an evil place its so bent on fashion and fitting in that we all are pushed into something we arnt everyday we get up like lately i look around and i feel i need to lose wieght i dont consider myself fat but im not where teen magazine tells me i should be and for girls i can only imagine what it must be like to wake up every morning look in the mirror and see that your not what every guy wants a tall thin blonde haired blue eyed pop star or actress or model i mean for guys its not to hard we dont have a problem cuase we dont have a model shoved down our throat everytime something is being sold to us on a billboard or commercail well scratch we do but its a woman and we just want a girl like that so we buy it. but for a girl when she is sold stuff she see's that perfect model and what she should look like if she wears a certain eye liner or lipstick and this is true evil its like holding a rabiit in front of a starving rabbit a cruel and unuasual punishment that leads to insanity
and now that youve listened to my rambling from subject to subject i will leave u be to get yourself ready for the hellish greedy and materialistic world we call earth have a good day...
on another hand im now completely single i had recently broken up with my gf not to long ago but we were still in that lets try to work it out stage and she decided the other day that she didnt wanna try anymore on top of that at work i was chewed out by my manager and two customers that fealt that it was my fault that there wernt more people working and that they had to wait for there food and that they were different from the ten people in line behind them i hate people... GOD I HATE PEOPLE
im also never allowed to have a friend over cuase my mother feels that he needs to get his life together being he has no job and does drugs and drinks and being that as of right now i have no other place to go i have no choice but to follow the rules man it rules almost being 20 and i can only see it getting even more fun.... once agian i hate people
on the good side of things i had a girl that liked me not to long ago i only met her for like 1 hour or 2 maybe how a person can like another person in that time confuses me unless its like just one of those things so im afraid of that but at the same time its pretty cool a little confidence boost after your gf just breaks up with ya..... man i hate people
i have also decided that even though i hacvnt been doing it that long i should quit smoking pot cuase its too god damn expensive and some friends i have and family dont agree with it so whatever no loss i guess and plus i would like to give my mother one light in the dark tunnel of her life being that one of her two sons just recently got out of jail and now isnt doing anything better with himself thanbefore he went into jail i dont know i feel i have to make up for what he does wrong we have never had a real good father figure around our dad left to early for us to remember and our step dad slapped us around alot..i hate people.. so i dont know i feel like i need to make up for all this pain and termoil cuased to my mom which doesnt really bother me to much just i dont know sometimes i wish the world could be perfect for a while really i wouldnt mind having a nice happy family that isnt broken up and perhaps a job i enjoy and make money at i mean i dont really even need the money maybe just a job i enjoy but that isnt the way the world works but im ok with that its just sometimes depressing to think back on
ive also decided that the world is truly an evil place its so bent on fashion and fitting in that we all are pushed into something we arnt everyday we get up like lately i look around and i feel i need to lose wieght i dont consider myself fat but im not where teen magazine tells me i should be and for girls i can only imagine what it must be like to wake up every morning look in the mirror and see that your not what every guy wants a tall thin blonde haired blue eyed pop star or actress or model i mean for guys its not to hard we dont have a problem cuase we dont have a model shoved down our throat everytime something is being sold to us on a billboard or commercail well scratch we do but its a woman and we just want a girl like that so we buy it. but for a girl when she is sold stuff she see's that perfect model and what she should look like if she wears a certain eye liner or lipstick and this is true evil its like holding a rabiit in front of a starving rabbit a cruel and unuasual punishment that leads to insanity
and now that youve listened to my rambling from subject to subject i will leave u be to get yourself ready for the hellish greedy and materialistic world we call earth have a good day...