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I can't believe that picking classes for next quarter has got me so freaked out about the future! Also, trying to make a schedule in case of a possible commute..
I almost want to write up my quasi-planned schedule here to see what people think ha ha, but all I'm lost on is French.. Should I really jump back into French? There's a class at 2 in the afternoon with a fantastic (as far as I know) teacher..
I think making my schedule is actually digging up this worry of where working with two foreign languages will put my brain. On days where I concentrate on using as much Japanese as possible, I feel like a different person. I feel like days where I get stuck thinking a lot in English (which has been lately, tsk tsk), I uhhh revert back to the pre-Japan-me, and I like post-Japan-me more. I know it doesn't have to be that way but.. How do I make peace with that!
I've noticed that my Japanese friends seem like different people when they speak English, and sometimes I prefer this or that. Which is frightful! I have this worry that trying to really jump into French will leave me with another 'me' to get my brain all muddled up. But I also love the idea of it. Having been so immersed with Japanese has felt like taking on a new body part or something. I don't want to give it up, I want to make sure it stays a part of my life. Can I do that with French? Ha ha, this feels like I'm getting ready for marriage or something. But it does feel a little like that! I already feel split up between Japan and America.. Flirting with the idea of spending time in a Francophone country though, do I want myself to be that all over the place across the world?
I tried so hard to journal about this earlier in Japanese, which is a thrill to realize that uhhh, I kind of can. But still, my brain runs too far ahead of myself while I'm still busy trying to craft my little baby-sentances, and I've already moved onto some new idea before completing my previous thought.
Well, actually, wait. This happens in English for me too, to some extent. I think that's why my entries get out of control so fast. Envious of writers, Japanese or English..
For others on my friends list.. How do you feel when you're speaking your second language? How much have your language studies swayed where you hope to end up in the future, as far as living and career goes?
I almost want to write up my quasi-planned schedule here to see what people think ha ha, but all I'm lost on is French.. Should I really jump back into French? There's a class at 2 in the afternoon with a fantastic (as far as I know) teacher..
I think making my schedule is actually digging up this worry of where working with two foreign languages will put my brain. On days where I concentrate on using as much Japanese as possible, I feel like a different person. I feel like days where I get stuck thinking a lot in English (which has been lately, tsk tsk), I uhhh revert back to the pre-Japan-me, and I like post-Japan-me more. I know it doesn't have to be that way but.. How do I make peace with that!
I've noticed that my Japanese friends seem like different people when they speak English, and sometimes I prefer this or that. Which is frightful! I have this worry that trying to really jump into French will leave me with another 'me' to get my brain all muddled up. But I also love the idea of it. Having been so immersed with Japanese has felt like taking on a new body part or something. I don't want to give it up, I want to make sure it stays a part of my life. Can I do that with French? Ha ha, this feels like I'm getting ready for marriage or something. But it does feel a little like that! I already feel split up between Japan and America.. Flirting with the idea of spending time in a Francophone country though, do I want myself to be that all over the place across the world?
I tried so hard to journal about this earlier in Japanese, which is a thrill to realize that uhhh, I kind of can. But still, my brain runs too far ahead of myself while I'm still busy trying to craft my little baby-sentances, and I've already moved onto some new idea before completing my previous thought.
Well, actually, wait. This happens in English for me too, to some extent. I think that's why my entries get out of control so fast. Envious of writers, Japanese or English..
For others on my friends list.. How do you feel when you're speaking your second language? How much have your language studies swayed where you hope to end up in the future, as far as living and career goes?