O Sweet Melodrama that is my life...not really
I haven't said much in a while.
Tendonitis is getting bad again. I wish I had brought my wrist splints and my heating pad. I thought I was cured.
Another thing I thought I was cured of...my mood disorder. Now that I'm off meds, it doesn't really look like full-fledged bipolar (but then again, you only need one manic episode EVER to make the distinction). I've been depressed, then fine, depressed, then fine. Feels like I'm mostly pulling out of it, but I'm a little concerned.
My school made our monthly goal (first time in years!) at 103% (#5 in Kanto Region) and our monthly renewal goal at some absurd % (we were #1), so whoohoo!
Went to karaoke and the zoo, not last weekend but the one before that. Had a good, drunk (and hangoverless) time at the former, but the latter bit (sucked), just a bit. I guess I don't do well with large groups (when I'm not drinking). Or maybe Brits. When I'm not drinking.
Which brings me to...I know I've said this before, but I'm not going to get drunk as much. And no, I've never been a big drinker, but in this culture, peer pressure is a serious issue and they DON'T EVEN REALIZE IT! That's not what made me drink, but it's really annoying to hear "Why aren't you drinking???" all the time. I almost find myself not drinking just to spite them, and only drinking with other people who don't pressure me. bwahahaha
I've been dreaming more and more vividly, but I can't remember what about. Often work.
I have a Japanese friend that I've hung out with twice now (apart from when we first met). I had my first Nihongo lesson last Friday. Motivation is high now. I've been studying. I know colors now. My goal is to make more JP friends and communicate with them.
Ok, pain. Stopping now. Love you all.
Tendonitis is getting bad again. I wish I had brought my wrist splints and my heating pad. I thought I was cured.
Another thing I thought I was cured of...my mood disorder. Now that I'm off meds, it doesn't really look like full-fledged bipolar (but then again, you only need one manic episode EVER to make the distinction). I've been depressed, then fine, depressed, then fine. Feels like I'm mostly pulling out of it, but I'm a little concerned.
My school made our monthly goal (first time in years!) at 103% (#5 in Kanto Region) and our monthly renewal goal at some absurd % (we were #1), so whoohoo!
Went to karaoke and the zoo, not last weekend but the one before that. Had a good, drunk (and hangoverless) time at the former, but the latter bit (sucked), just a bit. I guess I don't do well with large groups (when I'm not drinking). Or maybe Brits. When I'm not drinking.
Which brings me to...I know I've said this before, but I'm not going to get drunk as much. And no, I've never been a big drinker, but in this culture, peer pressure is a serious issue and they DON'T EVEN REALIZE IT! That's not what made me drink, but it's really annoying to hear "Why aren't you drinking???" all the time. I almost find myself not drinking just to spite them, and only drinking with other people who don't pressure me. bwahahaha
I've been dreaming more and more vividly, but I can't remember what about. Often work.
I have a Japanese friend that I've hung out with twice now (apart from when we first met). I had my first Nihongo lesson last Friday. Motivation is high now. I've been studying. I know colors now. My goal is to make more JP friends and communicate with them.
Ok, pain. Stopping now. Love you all.