A time in the past.
I had this random surge of thoughts running through my head for quite sometime now and was taking a look back at my life. I was looking at my friends that have such happy, long, loving relationships and just wonder "what did they ever do to have met their boyfriend or girlfriend and kept them for so long?" Now and days, meeting someone and clicking on all those levels just seems impossible. You know, friends, families, quirky habits, culture, religion, etc. I take a look at my friends and it seems like all aspects of their lives were unfolding and connecting with this other person and everything just happen to fall in the correct time and place and then BAM! Boyfriend & boyfriends or boyfriends & girlfriends they are.
I have always had this theory in my head that everyone has a past life that we probably aren't in tapped with, but it is some where within us. Sometimes, I've always wonder "what has this person gone through in their past life to have what they have today?" Maybe in their past life, they lived such a lonely but grateful life that the powers that be granted them a life that wasn't filled with such loneliness, unfolded all the correct pieces, and gave them this opportunity to meet this loving person, and keep them for along time. On the flip side, another possibility could be that maybe in their past life they had taken for granted of their lover and their happiness, that now in this present life, they have been granted loneliness.
I feel like we all have lessons to learn in this present life and maybe if it wasn't meant to be, it must be a lesson that we have to learn in the current life. There are times where I feel like maybe I did something horrible and wrong in my past life that I could be making up for it in this current lifetime.
A while back, I had talked to this nurse that I worked with and we had started talking and getting to know each other and she was a 45 year old nurse that had never been married nor did she ever had a boyfriend. She had always spent her life helping her siblings and her family and concentrated so hard in school that her love life never occur to her or crossed her mind.
After hearing her story, I took a look back at my life and realized even though I'm single right now, I have met such wonderful people in my life, although I am no longer with some of them anymore, I have met people that have given me the opportunity and permission to love on, even though they might not love me back, I was still given the opportunity and permission to show my loving in the way that I wanted to show to them, whether or not they felt the same way or not.
There was this quote that I always liked that I found when I was dating this guy and the quote goes "Whether you're gay or straight, everyone needs someone to love." I truly think this is true, don't you think so? Is it so wrong to hang on optimism and completely forget that pessimism exists? Maybe that’s what is keeping me going in this current life…optimism.
I have always had this theory in my head that everyone has a past life that we probably aren't in tapped with, but it is some where within us. Sometimes, I've always wonder "what has this person gone through in their past life to have what they have today?" Maybe in their past life, they lived such a lonely but grateful life that the powers that be granted them a life that wasn't filled with such loneliness, unfolded all the correct pieces, and gave them this opportunity to meet this loving person, and keep them for along time. On the flip side, another possibility could be that maybe in their past life they had taken for granted of their lover and their happiness, that now in this present life, they have been granted loneliness.
I feel like we all have lessons to learn in this present life and maybe if it wasn't meant to be, it must be a lesson that we have to learn in the current life. There are times where I feel like maybe I did something horrible and wrong in my past life that I could be making up for it in this current lifetime.
A while back, I had talked to this nurse that I worked with and we had started talking and getting to know each other and she was a 45 year old nurse that had never been married nor did she ever had a boyfriend. She had always spent her life helping her siblings and her family and concentrated so hard in school that her love life never occur to her or crossed her mind.
After hearing her story, I took a look back at my life and realized even though I'm single right now, I have met such wonderful people in my life, although I am no longer with some of them anymore, I have met people that have given me the opportunity and permission to love on, even though they might not love me back, I was still given the opportunity and permission to show my loving in the way that I wanted to show to them, whether or not they felt the same way or not.
There was this quote that I always liked that I found when I was dating this guy and the quote goes "Whether you're gay or straight, everyone needs someone to love." I truly think this is true, don't you think so? Is it so wrong to hang on optimism and completely forget that pessimism exists? Maybe that’s what is keeping me going in this current life…optimism.