Life update: I suck at everything.
Hey all.
Not posted in awhile. I wanted to make it weekly to keep track of where I was, for me and for everyone, but I haven’t managed to.
Since my last blog I’ve been pretty normal. Major ups and downs. No change, which is bad. I wanted to start levelling out but I’m still all over the place.
I got work sorted out, or so I thought. Changed my shifts to the 6-10 evening ones and immediately felt better about it and myself. The shifts went quick and I felt I was doing something I could actually do well. Every night I was doing something a little different so I didn’t feel I was in a rut like I did with the morning shifts. But now I am back on the early shifts this week and next (at least) and I really don’t want to do it. I set the wrong alarm last night and so missed work today. When I go in tomorrow I’ll ask to change my shifts (hopefully even for tomorrow, I don’t mind going home then coming back) but I know they wont. And I can’t really make them; they don’t care if I leave. And I can’t leave, because I am already fucked money-wise as it is.
Speaking of which, I am now over-drawn. I thought it was an over-charge or something but no, it was just me not keeping track and spending too much like the fuck-tard I am. I now have minus money till the beginning of May.
And that means I won’t be able to go to the Hub 6. Jemz will have to go on her own and I’ll miss a Hub once again. Also puts my cosplay on hold till May. Which itself is failing anyway as I don’t have the skill to get it done. It’s not even that particularly difficult but nope, I can’t do it.
So in summary: I’m stuck in a job I hate, I don’t have the skills or experience to get another job (enjoyable or not), I have to stick with it to afford my phone, cons and cosplay, and not even cons and cosplay make me that happy at the mo when I can do them (Kapow sucked hard, I was SO unhappy that day)
Jemz was here for over a week and this weekend we had our anniversary weekend in London. It was great, did a lot of fun things and just being within 5 feet of that woman makes me so happy. But even that was tarnished by her having to drink a bit of wine which then made her feel crappy and so leave me awake on my own most of the night and ruin our supposedly romantic evening together. The next day we parted ways so it was our last chance to be together till Milton Keynes at the end of May. With the money thing and this combined I literally cried in Starbucks, then again when she got her train. I am such a fucking mess right now.
I have no idea what to do right now. Literally no idea at all. Help.
Not posted in awhile. I wanted to make it weekly to keep track of where I was, for me and for everyone, but I haven’t managed to.
Since my last blog I’ve been pretty normal. Major ups and downs. No change, which is bad. I wanted to start levelling out but I’m still all over the place.
I got work sorted out, or so I thought. Changed my shifts to the 6-10 evening ones and immediately felt better about it and myself. The shifts went quick and I felt I was doing something I could actually do well. Every night I was doing something a little different so I didn’t feel I was in a rut like I did with the morning shifts. But now I am back on the early shifts this week and next (at least) and I really don’t want to do it. I set the wrong alarm last night and so missed work today. When I go in tomorrow I’ll ask to change my shifts (hopefully even for tomorrow, I don’t mind going home then coming back) but I know they wont. And I can’t really make them; they don’t care if I leave. And I can’t leave, because I am already fucked money-wise as it is.
Speaking of which, I am now over-drawn. I thought it was an over-charge or something but no, it was just me not keeping track and spending too much like the fuck-tard I am. I now have minus money till the beginning of May.
And that means I won’t be able to go to the Hub 6. Jemz will have to go on her own and I’ll miss a Hub once again. Also puts my cosplay on hold till May. Which itself is failing anyway as I don’t have the skill to get it done. It’s not even that particularly difficult but nope, I can’t do it.
So in summary: I’m stuck in a job I hate, I don’t have the skills or experience to get another job (enjoyable or not), I have to stick with it to afford my phone, cons and cosplay, and not even cons and cosplay make me that happy at the mo when I can do them (Kapow sucked hard, I was SO unhappy that day)
Jemz was here for over a week and this weekend we had our anniversary weekend in London. It was great, did a lot of fun things and just being within 5 feet of that woman makes me so happy. But even that was tarnished by her having to drink a bit of wine which then made her feel crappy and so leave me awake on my own most of the night and ruin our supposedly romantic evening together. The next day we parted ways so it was our last chance to be together till Milton Keynes at the end of May. With the money thing and this combined I literally cried in Starbucks, then again when she got her train. I am such a fucking mess right now.
I have no idea what to do right now. Literally no idea at all. Help.