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i think my perception is a little messed up. when things seem to being not that bad or even maybe kinda good, it kinda turns blah. so the past two days dawn has been on my head. and how the sum of two years is nothing. i keep thinking about talking to her and try and be sorta kinda friends again or anything. i keep trying to figure out how much she really hates me and what exactly was going on inside of her. she was a good friend that was kinda like me too. so in order to try and talk to her, i'm trying to think of how one would try and talk to me in a similiar case. which i dont even know that. could just stand/kneel there and have her just beat the hell outta me to vent her anger and hatred out. she probly wouldnt do that cuz it would be too noble for myself.
dammit. my mom just came in to bother me and i forgot everything. i need to build up my bank account again so i can move out. eh. fuck it. just fuck it all. how can i even think i know any of my new people if i didnt know someone i spent 2 years with that well? yeah, i need to write the good stuff that happens down so my LJ doesnt sound so depressive. well, lata
dammit. my mom just came in to bother me and i forgot everything. i need to build up my bank account again so i can move out. eh. fuck it. just fuck it all. how can i even think i know any of my new people if i didnt know someone i spent 2 years with that well? yeah, i need to write the good stuff that happens down so my LJ doesnt sound so depressive. well, lata