I'm not ok
I feel like i should be depressed tonight. I'm really not depressed, but i feel like i should be. I had a great day/night last night, the best i've had in a long time. I got to spend time with a great girl (who i won't mention by name, cause i really don't want to incur any bad karma at all), and i thought we had a great night. i guess time will tell. I feel pretty good about it, but i have this nagging feeling that i should be very pesimestic. Its not any particular thing, it just feels like what i should do, since thats what i always do or at least end up now.
I so often answer the question: "How are you?" with a general, "I'm ok." Honestly, i don't remember the last time i was really ok. I know i bitch and complain constantly about being single, but honestly, all i really want is for a girl i care about to care about me back, and for her to put her arms around me and whisper to me in a convincing way that everything is going to be ok. Because I want to be ok. I'm just not right now.
I so often answer the question: "How are you?" with a general, "I'm ok." Honestly, i don't remember the last time i was really ok. I know i bitch and complain constantly about being single, but honestly, all i really want is for a girl i care about to care about me back, and for her to put her arms around me and whisper to me in a convincing way that everything is going to be ok. Because I want to be ok. I'm just not right now.