Stupid razza frazzin past, always sneaking up on ya
I'm really weirded out. I talked to a girl tonight that I haven't really talked to since I was 18. We just talked for a moment. She was my first real girlfriend, and the first female I cared strongly for outside of my family. When I was 16, I thought I loved her. Hell, maybe I did. I don't remember. But, talking to her tonight, and seeing recent pictures of her. Just really weirds me out. She's nothing like the girl I remember, but at the same time she is. I don't know this for sure, but it seems as though the self-absorbed part of her personality got polished better than the rest as she grew into the woman she is. I just get this feeling that she is (and maybe always was, and I never saw it) a huge snob. It kind of makes me sad. She was such a great person. Or at least she tried to be. I don't know, maybe I'm giving her more credit than she deserved. I think what really makes me sad, is that she, just like a lot people I went to highschool with, moved their lives on and had great wonderful times and at the same time were productive. I, however, since highschool, have worked and done nothing with myself. I need to start being more social again.