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If you have a desire not to read mushy heart-felt stuff, then don't read the italicized part.
I'm going to take a moment to tell you about Jennifer. She's short, with shoulder length brown hair, freckles, big beautiful greenish brown eyes. She has the cutest little pug nose. And I don't deserve a friend like her. She came into my life when there was a lot of turmoil. I like to think of them as "the bad years." She was there, though. Through thick and thin. Through it all. And no matter how much I forgot her, or ignored her, or yelled at her, she was there. I don't deserve a friend like her. When I was living in shit, literally and metaphorically, she stood there with me pretending to ignore the fact we were standing in shit, because thats the kind of person she is. She focuses so much on the good in me, and ignores the rest. Maybe thats why it hurts her so much when the bad in me comes lashing out at her. For all the things I have done, or haven't done, I am sorry. I know she will forgive me, because thats just how she is. But I don't want her to think that I'm sorry because she'll forgive me. I'm sorry because I'm sorry. Jennifer is the best friend I have ever had, and I don't deserve her.
Now, to explain that a little better for the people who don't know Jennifer (which is most of you). I started dating Jennifer about 5 or 6 years ago I think. We broke up after 2 years. But she has been one of my best friends since. I don't have the best memory when it comes to remembering to do things. I consistently forgot to call her, or make plans, or uphold plans. And in turn, I really hurt her feelings. That little thing I wrote up there was my way of apologizing to a person whom I hurt, but honestly didn't mean to. So, its not like I hit her, or anything like that. I was just a dumbass. So, sorry Jennifer! :D
Thats all I got right now. Waiting for all my stuff to come in the mail! But its fucking Sunday. Fucking lazy as postpeople. I have to work on Sunday, why can't they? I have to leave for work in like, 15 minutes in fact! Dammit! I want my books! I want my dvd's! I want that thing I ordered for Leland, but I'm not going to say what!
I seriously can't wait to give Leland her present. I like giving presents. And I think she's going to be really happy to get this one. I hope she is, at least.
Anyway, off to work.
JDubbs Out
I'm going to take a moment to tell you about Jennifer. She's short, with shoulder length brown hair, freckles, big beautiful greenish brown eyes. She has the cutest little pug nose. And I don't deserve a friend like her. She came into my life when there was a lot of turmoil. I like to think of them as "the bad years." She was there, though. Through thick and thin. Through it all. And no matter how much I forgot her, or ignored her, or yelled at her, she was there. I don't deserve a friend like her. When I was living in shit, literally and metaphorically, she stood there with me pretending to ignore the fact we were standing in shit, because thats the kind of person she is. She focuses so much on the good in me, and ignores the rest. Maybe thats why it hurts her so much when the bad in me comes lashing out at her. For all the things I have done, or haven't done, I am sorry. I know she will forgive me, because thats just how she is. But I don't want her to think that I'm sorry because she'll forgive me. I'm sorry because I'm sorry. Jennifer is the best friend I have ever had, and I don't deserve her.
Now, to explain that a little better for the people who don't know Jennifer (which is most of you). I started dating Jennifer about 5 or 6 years ago I think. We broke up after 2 years. But she has been one of my best friends since. I don't have the best memory when it comes to remembering to do things. I consistently forgot to call her, or make plans, or uphold plans. And in turn, I really hurt her feelings. That little thing I wrote up there was my way of apologizing to a person whom I hurt, but honestly didn't mean to. So, its not like I hit her, or anything like that. I was just a dumbass. So, sorry Jennifer! :D
Thats all I got right now. Waiting for all my stuff to come in the mail! But its fucking Sunday. Fucking lazy as postpeople. I have to work on Sunday, why can't they? I have to leave for work in like, 15 minutes in fact! Dammit! I want my books! I want my dvd's! I want that thing I ordered for Leland, but I'm not going to say what!
I seriously can't wait to give Leland her present. I like giving presents. And I think she's going to be really happy to get this one. I hope she is, at least.
Anyway, off to work.
JDubbs Out